Phobia Support Group
A phobia (from the Greek "fear"), is a strong, persistent fear of situations, objects, activities, or persons. The main symptom of this disorder is the excessive, unreasonable desire to avoid the feared subject. When the fear is beyond one's control, or if the fear is interfering with daily life, then a diagnosis under one of the anxiety disorders can be made.
Its good that you see them as much as you can. but also remember to take time out for yourself, and to love yourself as you deserve to be loved.
The only thing you can do is be the best version of yourself that you can be.
Life is full of ups and downs, and know that the better you treat yourself the better you feel, and the better you feel the more you attract the right type of person to be in your life and help you grow even more.
Loving yourself and focusing on yourself and giving the love to yourself that you give others is very important. You are a beautiful loving person that deserver the same amount of love that you give.
I pray you are safe and healthy.