Are you afraid of pain, or that you'll bleed too much, or is it just the whole experience? Guess it doesn't really matter, because phobias are not really logical, are they? I don't have this particular problem, but I have given birth to five babies, so I can tell you that if you want a family, it's worth it all, no matter what you have to go through to have one. I used to be an EMT, and I can tell you that you are certainly not alone in this..LOTS of people have this problem. I'm afraid I can't help with this one, except to say you aren't alone, and I'm sure you'll find others here who can offer loving support. The important thing I think for all of us is to know we are not the only one, we aren't alone in our struggles. I wish you a sweet tomorrow.