I haven't been active here in a little over a week and I went to the hobbies and Collectors group and found out the founder of the group has died. She commited suicide this month on the 18th. I think she was a member of this group and I know she suffered from deppresion. I'm quite blown away by this. It could of been anyone, it could of beem me. This is the first time since I've been raped that I've felt greif over someones death. People in my family died(3) and 3 people in my program have died in thr last few months all close to each other month wise and I haven't felt greif. I've only know her sinse I've joined but I feel a lose. Maybe because she is a fellow borderline that it hits home. I don't know why but I wish there was another mor postive way my numb emotions came back. She's out of her pain now but it wasn't the way anyone wanted her to go. Evein though I did want my abiliy to feel emotions back but not at this cost. RIP
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