Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
the reason i am writing this just wanted to find out if im not the only 1 who thinks life just dont make no sense at all? to me everything just feels like a game or something no connection with reality what so ever. looking outside just looks like a cartoon sketch or something. am i the only one who sees life like this?
I know, that's not what you mean. And yes, i do see life like that a lot of the time. Heck, sometimes I'm surprised that I get away some of the things I do...then I wonder if I "drew" it out that way.
It can be very hard to describe but sometimes it's like living in a dream or like watching life through a window..... You are living but not engaged with life around you......
Everything in the world is man-made, everything is false. This isnt how we are supposed to be etc.
Sadly, I can never actually say how its supposed to be
In concept, I get things, and i am 'here', but what those in that 'here' place don't realise, is that I'm thinking half the time 'you are not really there, so nothing you say is valid'.... they ARE there, I can talk to them and cooperate and interact, but it seems as if you are moving one chess piece and another and even though half of the puppet is playing, the other half knows that you feel as you had left your body a long time ago, even if you are present....
It can be, not only a scary experience, when it matures - in other words, when the disconnection gets to the point where you lack 'connection' to people in the same way and it alters the idea of reality itself, - but it is also a lonely one where, you cannot talk to non-real things about how you feel, they are apart of a dream - one half of you is living, the life of substance, that is tangible, and here, because concepts keep us grounded..... the real, subjective part is telling you that this feels like eternity and rules do not really exist, sometimes you can see things in "x-ray", in other words, you see people as they are and not as they present themselves..... You are not a wiseman because of it, no, what I mean is, yeah you see things on face value still, but underneath you feel something is not right, people are not right, the world is a sadistic circus and fairground where animals just pretend to seek friendship when in the end there is only survival, betrayal, and the truth is, even though love exists, the only way you can truly find out about how somebody is, is by seeing all of them inside, and then you would probably not love them the same at all....
I am not making sense because in the UK it's nearly half 1 in the morning lol..... Soz. Ignore it if it's rubbish lol