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Two things about this really. I'm sorry if this post is a bit of a jumble i'm not good at the moment but I need some feedback from others.
As I said i'm in a bad place. My treatment team have basically said that they believe my depression and suicidality to be because of institutionalization.
Questions:
1) Does this mean if they think that, they don't take my suicidality seriously? They think I'm faking to stay in their care?
2) What's your experiences of this term being used on you?
3) What are you supposed to do with someone who is suicidal but is also at risk of institutionalization? Surely discharging me will make things worse? Is institutionalized life for a little while until stable not better than being dead because you can't take it anymore?
4) If you've experienced this term in your case, did it also make you feel bad? I do. I feel literally dirty when someone says I have become ****** . I feel like if it's true it's my fault...soley my fault and I'm bad through and through for that and so should not be helped at all. Did others have this reaction? I'm hoping some didn't and they can give me the rational thoughts behind it because I'm really not very ration at the moment.
x-Bliss-x
As I said i'm in a bad place. My treatment team have basically said that they believe my depression and suicidality to be because of institutionalization.
Questions:
1) Does this mean if they think that, they don't take my suicidality seriously? They think I'm faking to stay in their care?
2) What's your experiences of this term being used on you?
3) What are you supposed to do with someone who is suicidal but is also at risk of institutionalization? Surely discharging me will make things worse? Is institutionalized life for a little while until stable not better than being dead because you can't take it anymore?
4) If you've experienced this term in your case, did it also make you feel bad? I do. I feel literally dirty when someone says I have become ****** . I feel like if it's true it's my fault...soley my fault and I'm bad through and through for that and so should not be helped at all. Did others have this reaction? I'm hoping some didn't and they can give me the rational thoughts behind it because I'm really not very ration at the moment.
x-Bliss-x
I do feel concerned that you are so suicidal and ALL suicide threats or gestures should always be taken seriously and if they don't, then shame on them. I wish you the best of luck and most of all be good to you because you deserve it. Love/Hugs Catie :) If you need to talk I will listen.
I think sometimes you have to sit back, forget what negative things people have to say, and tell yourself that you love yourself no matter what and that whatever you are going through is ok to be going through. You've got enough to worry about without worrying about all the guilt you put on yourself to be having worry in the first place. Did that make sense? I'm a rambler, forgive me.
I'm going to try to be easy on myself too. Hope you will join me. Cheers!
Then again its probobly a matter of who is the doctor.
But I do know it is never your fault in times like these. Its just another stage. Youll get through it. You did nothing to "deserve" it. It is just something that happened, something that just is.
Also, their statement "your depression and suicidality is because of institutionalization" can be interpreted another way. It can also be said that, because you are institutionalized, or are being told you are at risk, it is triggering to you. Does that make sense?
Hoping things do get better for you, treat yourself with kindness
Twilight x
They thought i'd be better outside. Which is kind of strange, as i would have thought that if i was getting worse they would have kept me in! But actually i did get better when i got out.
I don't know, its hard to understand them sometimes!
The trouble I have with their arguement is that for 18 months previous to going to the eating disorder I had depression and had times where I was suicidal. I'd never been in a unit at that time.
I'm a day patient so I go there between the hours of 10am and 4pm, 5 days a week...a bit like school really.
x-Bliss-x
If you mean't before, I'd been in neither at that time. I was first hospitalised for suicidal thoughts so they came before.
This is quite frusterating..
But I would still say that they do not mean to say that they do not take you being suicidal serisously, that they are seeing the effects of the environment you have been put into as detrimental, triggering to you and they want to somehow get you out of that and still in their care so they can moniter you in a place where you arent being so triggered.
Because also consider just because you are not in an institution does not mean that you are not under extreme care by professionals. Maybe they mean to make frequent visits with you to monitor how you are doing, especially under the circumstances with how you would have left. Doctors will still be there, even if you are not within the walls of an institution.
Thank you everyone!