I think when you like there are no other problems to discuss or any cognative therapy to be done its time to take a break.
You shouldn,t put yourself in bad situations just so you have something to discuss.
Maybe your parents have things they can see in you that need to be adressed.
I know its hard to have your life under a microscope.
Also learning to trust your councillor will be a great help it will gives you better communication so he can help you.
Good Luck To You Lovie.
Take Care, keep plodding along you can get through this!!. xxxxx

I know how you feel. I haven't been to therapy since the end of July. I made a big announcement on the site that I was going back. I have canceled two sessions so far. I have always been anxious about going to therapy. I have also developed the thing where you don't want to leave the house. Unlike you, I recognize I need to get there. I set an appointment and then cancel. I was thinking about trying to drive to the office a few times. I'm not going to try a "walk-in", but just try to get in the car and drive the 40minutes to the office. If I can do that, maybe I can make another appointment, if she will still have me. I know she is the one to help me, but she scares me. I am also angry at her because she took up for my husband and my principal in therapy. As I said, I recognize that I need to go. I am becoming way too comfortable having my husband run errands for me. Life is so comfortable here. I even justify the lack of need to interact with people who haven't bothered to check in on me. Now that the holiday season is starting up, people are expecting me out. I have survived Thanksgiving. My husband took the boys to his side and then to my side of the family. No one seemed to care that I was missing. I'm not upset though. I accepted that a while back. I get lonely for my husband or my boys, but I don't want anyone else. This is again a problem because I am a pastor's wife. My husband may have to move to a larger church one day. People expect the wife to be present and active. (We don't get paid by the way, but it is expected.) I don't want to hold my husband back. I have started reading Job in the bible. I find it very interesting. I am looking forward to completing the book of Job. I think I will gain strength and wisdom.
Good luck with your therapy.

if you dont feel you need therapy then stop for awhile youronly making it harder on yourself .

You have my sympathies. I have never been able to talk to anyone either. I did attend counselling years ago but just couldnt make any words come out my mouth. The thought of having to sit there and tell someone face to face all my dirty secrets and have them analyse everything I said was just too hard. Most people who know me know there is something wrong with me but I have never really talked about any of it with them. Occasionally I do try to but I can never go through with it. I usually build myself up to say something and then blurt out some crazy comment that isnt even close to what I meant to say,, so it just makes me seem even weirder. Ironically I do seem to be able to spill most of it out to strangers here and I also keep a journal on Live Journal. Writing does help me, have you tried writing it down anonymously?

I used to do the same and end up putting myself into bad situations, so i could discuss something different. or i would make myself so anxious id start thinking things that werent true because i wanted something to say. sorry if that dont make sense.x x

I totally understand what you are going through because I am going through the same thing right now, the only difference is I do like my therapist. I just feel like an idiot when I go because I can't put my feelings and emotions into words. I too have cancelled a session and am thinking of cancelling my next one. My advice would be to continue going and to tell you that it will get easier, however I can't very well tell you that if I am not willing to follow my own advice. I wish you the best of luck with this and I hope it becomes easier for you.