Personality Disorders Support Group
Personality disorders form a class of mental disorders that are characterized by long-lasting rigid patterns of thought and behaviour. Personality disorders are seen by the American Psychiatric Association as an enduring pattern of inner experience and behavior that deviates markedly from the expectations of the culture of the individual who exhibits it.
Not feeling very positive at the moment.
I had another therapy session today but it didn't really go as well as I hoped. I don't know what he wants from me anymore! He was talking about me changing my thoughts. That I can't control the feelings, they'll change last, but I can change my thoughts.
........................................... HOW? ..........................................................
Ok. So I have a thought: "It's hopeless, my isn't worth living". His idea is that I need to change that and think about what the alternatives would be....
...so, fine "It's not hopeless, it's going to take while but it will get better"...
BUT... I can say that until I'm blue in the face! It doesn't mean I believe it! I can't see how thinking about alternative ways of thinking is going to help!!! When I explained that I don't believe the new thoughts when I try and think them...he said "I know you don't, I don't expect you to at the moment but you will with practise".
ARGH, what is it I am supposed to practise if it doesn't work!!! HELP, am I missing something here!?
I know he cares but it feels like he just didn't get it today. It was only meant to be a 1/2 hr appointment and I was in there for over an hour. Although I think that's because of my thinking at the time...it's possible he didn't want me to leave suicidal.
I don't know how this is going to work if I can't do what he's asking me to! :(
x-Bliss-x
I had another therapy session today but it didn't really go as well as I hoped. I don't know what he wants from me anymore! He was talking about me changing my thoughts. That I can't control the feelings, they'll change last, but I can change my thoughts.
........................................... HOW? ..........................................................
Ok. So I have a thought: "It's hopeless, my isn't worth living". His idea is that I need to change that and think about what the alternatives would be....
...so, fine "It's not hopeless, it's going to take while but it will get better"...
BUT... I can say that until I'm blue in the face! It doesn't mean I believe it! I can't see how thinking about alternative ways of thinking is going to help!!! When I explained that I don't believe the new thoughts when I try and think them...he said "I know you don't, I don't expect you to at the moment but you will with practise".
ARGH, what is it I am supposed to practise if it doesn't work!!! HELP, am I missing something here!?
I know he cares but it feels like he just didn't get it today. It was only meant to be a 1/2 hr appointment and I was in there for over an hour. Although I think that's because of my thinking at the time...it's possible he didn't want me to leave suicidal.
I don't know how this is going to work if I can't do what he's asking me to! :(
x-Bliss-x
But how I see it is - I live in the moment, I'm not sure if that's consistent with BPD or not, but I hardly ever see the future or the past - So when I'm feeling "life isn't worth living" I don't remember anything else - I don't remember in the PAST when it DID feel like living... and I can't see in the FUTURE when I know it will feel better...
I live very much in the moment... and I don't know how to change it - is that kind of what you feel like???
Whit
Yes, that's EXACTLY how I feel. It's like dissociation. I just can't actually remember the good times when I'm bad...and the bad times when I'm good. Well, no, I remember them but I can't connect with the emotions I was feeling at all!
It makes it hard in therapy because if I'm having a better day, there's no chance of getting through to any underlying problems at the time. I just can't access them!
x-Bliss-x
It wouldn't surprise me if alot of borderlines would be better of with psychodynamic therapy since we tend to think so deeply. Psychodynamic is Freudian in origin, but has evolved much since his time.
Yeah not everyone has to buy into cognitive therapy. You have a right to ask what type of therapy you are being offered and ask for something different. I know they say something like 97% of depressed people are helped by cognitive therapy in combination with meds, but when you have more than depression going on....