I am new to this board. I was burned badly by some "friends" back in January. I moved and haven't found any new ones. I just don't want any friends right now cause I am still scared of what happened before. I do have online "friends" and enjoy other boards. That is the way I am social.

i also was hurt by some friends. there were these two ppl, that i admire and looked up too. they were basically my big brother and big sister. since i am the oldest in the family, and have always had to be the older one. i really like having someone older around. then they started to distance themselves, they told me we couldn't be as good of friends cuz of age or gender. and yes i realize there are lines that should not be crossed, but none were. they told me their job needed to come before me. i felt even worthless than when i had before. being told i was below their job. and that i was not good enough to be their friend. i had trusted these ppl and had shared a lot with them. i went to them for advice, and they knew almost all my secrets. bad and good. and then one day they just picked up and abandoned me. now i am scared that someone will do the same. i know we are all human, and we let others down. but it hurt so bad. and i don't think i could go throught that again. so i just keep everything inside, the only ppl i talk too now are on this site. but still it isn't the same as talking in person. i just don't want to be hurt again.

The problem with bpd in my book is that I tend to put people on pedatals. When they do even the slightest thing that hurts me I am done with them. I guess it's that black and white thinking.

i do that too, sort of, i tend to really cling to someone to meet my needs, and i have way to high expectations of them, and when they realize they can't help me, and i am hurt cuz they can't help me, everything turns out ugly.