Paranoia Support Group
Paranoia is a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. It is often associated with psychotic illnesses, sometimes schizophrenia, although attenuated features may be present in other primarily non-psychotic diagnoses, such as paranoid personality disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder.
I Often have thoughts of doing horrendous things to people i know, or individuals on the street, and i have been told this is at least semi-normal. this leads me to believe that people around me, even my friends and family could at one moment want me dead. this gives me extreme anxiety especially while driving, and at work. Is any one else scared of the possibility of spontaneous violence? also with my anxiety comes with greater frequency the sitings of shades, and apparitions. some that tell me to act out whats in my head. Luckily i know none of this could possibly be real. im just wondering. any one else relate to me?
We can't control everything that our brains think, and I have had some thoughts of hurting people I love even though I never would hurt them and I don't really want to. It's not a choice for me to think these things, they just randomly pop into my head. That is also a symptom of obsessive compulsive disorder.
I really suggest seeing a psychiatrist to help with your situation, as you sound like you are suffering from hallucinations (apparitions telling you to do certain things). Medication and therapy can greatly help with this. :)