Paranoia Support Group
Paranoia is a disturbed thought process characterized by excessive anxiety or fear, often to the point of irrationality and delusion. It is often associated with psychotic illnesses, sometimes schizophrenia, although attenuated features may be present in other primarily non-psychotic diagnoses, such as paranoid personality disorder and obsessive compulsive disorder.
What are some of the most ridiculous things to have hijacked your mind for any period of time?
Given our lack of knowledge of a large part of how the physical universe works and also given the strange and inexplicable phenomena in some of the known dimensions in physics, and allot of other phenomena that have yet to be explained and a wide range of beliefs which have intersecting components, it might be possible that there is another dimension other than space and time to this universe that is what one would otherwise call the spiritual realm, and that in that dimension there might be pseudo beings which we would otherwise call gods, demons and angels. Then I look at my life and at the height of my paranoia observe a person who seems to make an enemy out of the most unsuspecting person. I then recall from a movie I saw that when a demon tries to possess a persons body, it will first weaken the mind before taking possession. I then see how every interaction I have with people somehow, almost like a magician, seems to trigger a hostile response and how that response is often taken to its limit of my negative interpretation, courtesy of a paranoid mind, and how every day I grow weaker and weaker and each and every thing that I see value or the slightest beauty in slowly picks up a kind of mental rust and everything becomes repulsive, hostile and dangerous and the weakness spreads to my body and I become ill and weak and tired. My intellect becomes dull and my ideals and sense of ethics go out the window at which point I have zero incentive to trust myself. Then the thought occurs to me, if there was a demon trying to possess me, it's doing a hell of job at it. I wonder how long. But ofcourse the whole idea is ridiculous. Yet of course if by some small chance it were so, then said demon might be aware of the thoughts I'm currently entertaining, and if so then ridiculous is exactly what it would want me think. But if I believe it then it might be threatened by this and might try to take over before I get ahead of it. But I can't turn back now because the fear of this possibility has already struck me so I can't shut it out of my mind now and ..... you know the rest.
I know what a delusion is and have had some severe delusions which I still find hard to shut out of my mind and some which I still feel might be real, although this one about demons wasn't one of them, it was more of an invasive thought.
Feel free to share any of your most ridiculous thoughts or delusions.
Given our lack of knowledge of a large part of how the physical universe works and also given the strange and inexplicable phenomena in some of the known dimensions in physics, and allot of other phenomena that have yet to be explained and a wide range of beliefs which have intersecting components, it might be possible that there is another dimension other than space and time to this universe that is what one would otherwise call the spiritual realm, and that in that dimension there might be pseudo beings which we would otherwise call gods, demons and angels. Then I look at my life and at the height of my paranoia observe a person who seems to make an enemy out of the most unsuspecting person. I then recall from a movie I saw that when a demon tries to possess a persons body, it will first weaken the mind before taking possession. I then see how every interaction I have with people somehow, almost like a magician, seems to trigger a hostile response and how that response is often taken to its limit of my negative interpretation, courtesy of a paranoid mind, and how every day I grow weaker and weaker and each and every thing that I see value or the slightest beauty in slowly picks up a kind of mental rust and everything becomes repulsive, hostile and dangerous and the weakness spreads to my body and I become ill and weak and tired. My intellect becomes dull and my ideals and sense of ethics go out the window at which point I have zero incentive to trust myself. Then the thought occurs to me, if there was a demon trying to possess me, it's doing a hell of job at it. I wonder how long. But ofcourse the whole idea is ridiculous. Yet of course if by some small chance it were so, then said demon might be aware of the thoughts I'm currently entertaining, and if so then ridiculous is exactly what it would want me think. But if I believe it then it might be threatened by this and might try to take over before I get ahead of it. But I can't turn back now because the fear of this possibility has already struck me so I can't shut it out of my mind now and ..... you know the rest.
I know what a delusion is and have had some severe delusions which I still find hard to shut out of my mind and some which I still feel might be real, although this one about demons wasn't one of them, it was more of an invasive thought.
Feel free to share any of your most ridiculous thoughts or delusions.
I am also paranoid that I'll live forever.
why?
no idea and I know in my heart this is so not true.
A few months back, (we have this old door bell system in our house) and its this box that's high up on the wall across from the front door. I was home alone one time I glanced at it and though (I live with my aunt) "is that a megaphone or camera of some sort so that my aunt can keep an eye on me while I'm home alone?"
It effects me to the point where I don't want to leave my partner at night even if it's to use the bathroom as I think they might take me and she won't know and won;t be able to help me... but then I think maybe they DO take me anyway when she's asleep and wipe my mind so I can't remember and my partner is asleep so she'll have no recollection either.
I wanted it to be true deep down inside I've come to understand. I can't really give a scientific answer towards the demon thing. I will say I recently discovered a just God wouldn't fool me into thinking famous people had me on their mind. Through a lot of hard work I also was able to comprehend that my imagination in connection with delusion manipulated my thought process. The manipulation became systematic and like a cycle I automatically thought or conceived a false reality as a dialogue inside my head.
What I'm saying is if the person has a constant thought that something is out to get them not only is it a clone of reality it is often irreversible during the process.
In my case the "demon" was my own mind and it's workings at the time. There is hope and the process hasn't left entirely (the process of having delusional or what I call irrational thoughts now) but the analysis of them has changed. For instance if I think a superstar musician is performing entirely for my ears only, that illogical beginning of a thought shifts to focus on the reality that I am part of the whole audience (which is true) and that I am entitled to understand the art in my own comprehension (which can be seen as faulty or false). So if this makes any sense the understanding goes lie, truth, lie. The whole process also works within arbitrary evidence that I am making the choices and decisions. For example, if I think Eminem raps to torture me, all I have to do is turn the station, channel, or change the song. I am not changing the song to avoid the torture entirely, I am changing the song to prove to myself that I decided to allow the torture (even if delusional) and also there is a possibility that he isn't rapping to torture. That could (and does) lead to more generally healthier thoughts of simply just an artist performing or me investing too much into delusion again.
I hope that helped anyone confused or struggling with their paranoia or delusions.
when the delusions are bad, i think that nuclear weapons are buried everywhere in my town, nearly ready to be be activated or deactivated.
it's very disconcerting. but most of the time I'm thinking about time traveling and shapeshifters and freaky stuff like that, but it all mixes together and scares me a lot. it's horrible. but i cope. and then when i recover life feels temporarily boring and depressing.