I started to feel lightheaded in January, usually when sitting at my computer and looking up real quick. It seemed strange at the time but I felt fine otherwise. I am female, 63 years old and live alone, went through divorce after 30 yrs of marriage 4 years ago. I live in the boonies and my family is not near by, winter in my part of the country can be brutal but I always embraced it's beauty too.
5 weeks ago in church, about 15 minutes into the service my vision got blurry, I could not focus, started to sweat and I felt like I was going to faint. NEVER had anything like that happen before. Week before my shoulder/chest area got sore from shoveling snow and I was worried that I was having heart issues. I made an appointment after that first anxiety or panic attack (what was it?) I felt fine going to the Doc, we discussed shoulder/chest pain issue which she said was nothing to worry about. I felt better then although I still had bouts of being lightheaded. Made appointment to get my hair cut, it really needed it and had an episode at the shop - same as in church, felt like fainting and had to hold on to something even while sitting in a chair. I felt better once I was back in the car and went to Wal-Mart to get some necessities - same thing the minute I entered the store, I barely got what I needed and standing at the checkout was awful.
I then called Doc and they put me on Buspirone. which I stated to take twice a day. Next night I had a major panic attack, which made me call the paramedics and was taken to the hospital, where they did a cat scan of the brain, which was fine and gave me something that put me to sleep for a couple of hours, after that I was sent home. I did not know that this was a panic attack, I thought was going to die.
Not sure if it was provoked by the meds or what. My daughter came to see me that weekend, took me to get my taxes done, I had to leave the office 4 times, vision was blurry again. We went shopping but I could not go in the store, she got the groceries for me. I called Doc back and they put me on Klonopin which was much better - I was actually able to run my errands by myself and felt good the whole weekend. Next day Doc appointment to follow up, I did not take my meds as they said as needed and I felt good that morning. Started to have symptoms one the way there and at the office. I popped a pill when I got there but these things do not work that fast. Better once I left the office, I am to see how I can manage with the meds and come back in a month. Last 2 days and nights were good, I have minor issues with heart pounding and being light headed - no meds, I work from home so did not have to go out.
How did it all start for you guys and can it go away ever? This has taken a toll on me, that vicious cycle of being afraid of being afraid. Afraid to go to church, afraid to go to the store etc.
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