Life happens and some thing created us to temporarily fall in to this hole. I hope you start to feel better . What meds are you taking ?

You will find your way. Keep on getting the help you need. Therapy and meditation. Breathing exercises also help the stress lessen and subside. I felt the same way. It was so sudden and random for me. You're going through this phase of derealization. Where you're probably afraid of things subconsciously happening in your life even though they'll never happen. I'm feeling way better now than I did the first two weeks of me having this! And I thought I would never feel good again but I do. But it's hard work. A lot of self love and subduing the underlying fear that's causing this depression. The depression is what caused the anxiety and panic attacks. You didn't see it coming because you probably kept sweeping your fears under the rug and "saving them for later." Now is the "later." You need to dig deep and start figuring out what it is and take action. Therapy WILL help you. If one therapist doesn't work, try another but don't give up. You need to be on your own team and be certain that you will be safe and things will get better. Even if you don't feel certain now, keep saying it to yourself. Form a habit of believing that it will all go away and that's how you start. Physiology is just as important as phycology. Remember this. Meaning you need to do what you're advised to do by people who're trying to help you. Exercise in the morning. For 5 to 10 minutes. And walk around after. When I first did this I was delirious and lightheaded and I hated every moment of it. But that meant it was working. Because I challenged myself to deal with it! Meditate for 10 mins. The goal is to regain focus when you get distracted. The more you keep getting distracted and realizing it, the better. That's gonna help you come to your senses by regaining focus of who you are. You're in a brain funk right now where you can't see clearly and think rationally. Get out more. And meet new people! Challenge yourself even if you're nervous and shy. You have to do the work. I'm feeling better and haven't had a panic attack in a week and a half. I thought I would have it forever. But I took action and I did/doing the hard work. Facing my fears and learning about myself. Loving myself. Understanding and being kind with myself. You WILL overcome this! I promise. Just keep on pushing and don't stop believing in yourself even if you're on the ground crying and asking "Why me?". Never stop giving up on yourself and always believe you'll win and succeed this shit! Because you will!

Hope this helps!

Thanks ! Today was a better day, but still not great. The meds are making me so tired and I have narcolepsy or top of everything else. My new doctor introduced celexa and is tapering down Prozac which I've been on since college. I also take lamictal.

I had a session with. my therapist this morning. Before i start, im not going to kill myself. I wouldn't don that to my husband and parents. But I'm so miserable. Who'd want to live like this.? I have a good life. I know this, just can't stand what it's become.

I'm in the thick of it too, shaking, no appetite bad thoughts, but I am in new medication, and therapy helps, plus this site does too. Hugs

Thank you! I've had a good few days.. No full blown attacks since Wednesday morning.. I seem to go in cycles. How have you done it for 18 years?

I have found comfort in books about mindfulness and breathing techniques....good luck!