Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
My themes change too, usually according to whatever situation I am in. It is very stressful.
If I am around a guy, the gay thoughts over flow on me.. "I'm gay." - "Touch is d*ck." - "He has sexy eyes." - "Lick c*ck"...and so on.
If I am trying to pray to God or strengthing my faith, or read the Bible or any other religious material the thoughts come, "F*ck God" - "F*ck Jesus" and so on.
If I am around a girl the thoughts overflow like this because I have a footfetish and am embarrassed about it I get these thoughts around women, "She knows you are a freak" - "Feet, Feet, Feet" - and so on.
If I am by myself I still have intrusive thoughts...they could be any or all of these just coming and going sometimes hitting me hard like a gun shot. Racial slanders around opposite races. And believe me, I dont want ANY of these thoughts. It is like verbal in my head, like Torettes in the mind. Terrible thing to live with, I cant even concentrate on things a lot of the times. And this is why I am unemployed, anti-social, single, and abuse drugs. Now I have a criminal record and am expected to pay fines but I cant work. And I am sure my PO thinks I am just being "ME", a rebel bad ass not paying his fines and being lazy not working... blah blah blah. I dont know how to tell the judge or the PO or anybody for that matter, oh I have OCD, PURE O, like Torrettes in the mind kinda. , you don't even know how happy I'd be to have a shit can job at McDonalds flipping hot greesy burgers for 8 hours making min. wage if I could just be comfortable in my mind while doing it. Sure, regular stress and thoughts are expected, but there is a big difference in regular bad thoughts and Pure O.
And ignorance towards mental health makes me upset!!!!! Live in our shoes sometime and tell me oh its fucking nothing. Sorry. Sometimes I tell myself how much I would give this mental health problems up in trade for a physical health problem. Gimmie a broken leg, PLEASE!!!!! At least I will be thinking straight and can rest or have serenity in the mind. Damn. DECAPITATE ME! Sometimes my intrusive thoughts come in sharp images...and boy do they get vulgar and gross sometimes and its the exact thought I dont want in my head that will form. Believe me.
Anyways....I am looking for advice myself on the best thing to take for medication. I dont care about side effects AT ALL! I saw somebody on here make a statement that said, "If the person likes the effects of the medicine but stops taking it because they couldn't stand the side effects then that persons diagnosis wasn't as serious as they make it out to be or could be." That is sooooo true. I know because I don't care if the side effect is throwing up 3 times a day, diarehha, and zits on my face, with added 100 pounds of weight....I will manage the acne, exercise hard, and get a better diet and deal with it because I am sick with a disease called OCD, Pure O, and it is bad and I want these symptoms to be nearly gone, if uncureable I want them to be damn near as close as you can get then.
SO, if anybody heard anything good about ANAFRANIL despite the side effects please let me know. If it is better then the SSRI's for the most part in handling the intrusive thoughts then that is the med I will start next week. If there is a COMBO that has worked for somebody please let me know. So on. I know every drug works different for everybody, I know this....I am just looking for what has worked for you. Please somebody hit me with advice.
Thank you....Jake. =)
If I am around a guy, the gay thoughts over flow on me.. "I'm gay." - "Touch is d*ck." - "He has sexy eyes." - "Lick c*ck"...and so on.
If I am trying to pray to God or strengthing my faith, or read the Bible or any other religious material the thoughts come, "F*ck God" - "F*ck Jesus" and so on.
If I am around a girl the thoughts overflow like this because I have a footfetish and am embarrassed about it I get these thoughts around women, "She knows you are a freak" - "Feet, Feet, Feet" - and so on.
If I am by myself I still have intrusive thoughts...they could be any or all of these just coming and going sometimes hitting me hard like a gun shot. Racial slanders around opposite races. And believe me, I dont want ANY of these thoughts. It is like verbal in my head, like Torettes in the mind. Terrible thing to live with, I cant even concentrate on things a lot of the times. And this is why I am unemployed, anti-social, single, and abuse drugs. Now I have a criminal record and am expected to pay fines but I cant work. And I am sure my PO thinks I am just being "ME", a rebel bad ass not paying his fines and being lazy not working... blah blah blah. I dont know how to tell the judge or the PO or anybody for that matter, oh I have OCD, PURE O, like Torrettes in the mind kinda. , you don't even know how happy I'd be to have a shit can job at McDonalds flipping hot greesy burgers for 8 hours making min. wage if I could just be comfortable in my mind while doing it. Sure, regular stress and thoughts are expected, but there is a big difference in regular bad thoughts and Pure O.
And ignorance towards mental health makes me upset!!!!! Live in our shoes sometime and tell me oh its fucking nothing. Sorry. Sometimes I tell myself how much I would give this mental health problems up in trade for a physical health problem. Gimmie a broken leg, PLEASE!!!!! At least I will be thinking straight and can rest or have serenity in the mind. Damn. DECAPITATE ME! Sometimes my intrusive thoughts come in sharp images...and boy do they get vulgar and gross sometimes and its the exact thought I dont want in my head that will form. Believe me.
Anyways....I am looking for advice myself on the best thing to take for medication. I dont care about side effects AT ALL! I saw somebody on here make a statement that said, "If the person likes the effects of the medicine but stops taking it because they couldn't stand the side effects then that persons diagnosis wasn't as serious as they make it out to be or could be." That is sooooo true. I know because I don't care if the side effect is throwing up 3 times a day, diarehha, and zits on my face, with added 100 pounds of weight....I will manage the acne, exercise hard, and get a better diet and deal with it because I am sick with a disease called OCD, Pure O, and it is bad and I want these symptoms to be nearly gone, if uncureable I want them to be damn near as close as you can get then.
SO, if anybody heard anything good about ANAFRANIL despite the side effects please let me know. If it is better then the SSRI's for the most part in handling the intrusive thoughts then that is the med I will start next week. If there is a COMBO that has worked for somebody please let me know. So on. I know every drug works different for everybody, I know this....I am just looking for what has worked for you. Please somebody hit me with advice.
Thank you....Jake. =)
This is the first time I'm saying this in my whole life....I am actually obsessed with pimples I had 30 years ago as a teen. Is that crazy?? Every freakin day I re-live popping the biggest pimples of my teen years. I shouldn't even remember each individual pimple...but I do. Where it was, how big it was, and what it was like to pop them. Thirty fkn years of thinking if big pimples! Is that a waste of my time or what?
What is this horrible decay of our minds?!
I'm in the 2% bracket for who they just don't work for...................I did get the side effects but no help.
But like i said i wouldn't consider me a good example cause i've tried 15 meds and nothing, no help.
As a religious person, you can try giving your thoughts/obsessions to God everyday. Give the responsibility to Him and remember that He CAN heal you, just be patient and try. Remember that it's not God, it's the devil.
And as for dealing with the HOCD... Sometimes you just have to go "Okay, so what if I am gay! Fine, I'm gay! Who cares, moving on." It can really help...
It's the bully theory. The bully is your OCD, and if you reject him, you fuel him, but if you agree with the bully, the bully eventually goes away. Think of it this way: You're back in elementary school and a kid constantly picks on you, calling you names and is just rude. Naturally, you fight back "No, I'm not!" "Leave me alone"... But if you were to reply to the bully with: "Okay, I am a loser" "You're right, I AM stupid." They eventually have no more fuel and have to back off.
(This scenario helped me the most...)