Hi there. I'm glad you found your way here. It sounds like you're going through a tough time. I see you are also part of the trich group (I myself have dermatillomania). I can certainly relate.

A lot of people go through what you're describing; the feeling that doing something or not doing something specific will keep bad things from happening.

You're not alone. You're very far from alone.

Would you be willing to open up little bit more about the nature of your OCD? There are known subtypes of OCD but it's a disorder that can really manifest in any nasty way it wants.

Either way, you've got my support. I'm here if you need to talk to someone.

You can message me. I have always had O CD. In one of my previous group therapy, have been in several, a lady could only eat a very few foods. Don't know if it was O CD, eating disorder, or what but there are many anxiety disorders that have odd symptoms. And are so hard to learn to control.
Have you asked your therapist if medication may help?

Hi, I don't have the foods thing myself but once read about someone who did (in her case her OCD made her feel as if some foods were contaminated and some weren't, and I believe the "uncontaminated" list got smaller and smaller until she was eating very few foods and lost a lot of weight). So, you're definitely not alone.
My OCD symptoms have always been odd, I feel, and unique to me It wasn't until I did a lot of research that I finally found descriptions like what I was experiencing. Mine don't usually make it onto the usual "contamination, harm, violence, etc" lists you might see in a textbook. I just wanted to let you know that rosecandy is right, it really can take any form it wants.

I completely relate to the feeling that you get that something bad is going to happen, although you don't know what it is. I used to count my steps and once I got to a certain number, usually ending in a 7, I couldn't step anymore because I thought something bad would happen. I knew it was unreasonable but that didn't stop me from balling me eyes out for over an hour. If you ever want to talk just message me!