Awwe bless you, i know how you feel; i really dont like things like counselors and opening up to people about my anxiety and my depression.....but i too have decided its time to change the way i 'look' at seeking help. and to stop thinking its an admission of weakness, or attention seeking etc.
On the contrary its proving to yourself that you are strong enough to recognise you need to make a change in your life so that you can progress out of the station your in.

Im about to arrange my first appointment with a counsellor too, i wish you luck and be very proud that you have made the hardest first step, it must get easier after this ;-)

Thank you for your kindness. I have to admit, it already is a little easier. The first step is the hardest... and admitting you need help to begin with. But, if you or I were diabetic, and we went to the doc for insulin, nobody would believe it was attention seeking then, right? Food for thought.

And good for you!! We are stronger than this, absolutely.

Yes i know exactly what you mean about the Diabetes... my sentiments entirely ;-)
all other illnesses for the most part; people discover they have them, they go straight to their GP and accept the medicine and advice etc without giving it a second thought.....
but as soon as its depression; the human-mind habitually goes straight into self-critics, embarrassment and feeling ashamed, which is quite sad, coz its probably more common in people then pretty-much most other illnesses tbh.
Good luck with your appointment, kp me updated ;-)

Thank you, I will.