I usually dont get into all my rituals but they are embarassing and time consuming. I have attempted 3 times this year to renew my drivers license and everytime i go have to go alone. I dont get food alot and many times have gone without b/c i dont know who to ask. My mom gives who live only 15 mins from me when I ask for her to bring me food gives me the " i dont feel like it" or my sister " do I really have to or why do we have to go to the store that early". I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING b/c I am still trying to do some things but i cannot go alone and i just want people to come with me. I attempted to get my license again this morning but everytime I go its a problem and i have to wait a hours and i just do that i alone so I end up leaving. If I had someone with me I may stay. I called my sister to come with me but she had other things to do so I asked her for a latex glove so I can sign and get my license and she tells me to go to the dollar store. I hung up the phone in her face. If I could just go to the dollar store then why in the heck would i call you for one? I order my clothes just so I wont have to go anywhere. I probably get my hair done 3 or 4 times a year b/c I just cant bring myself to do it. I thought today as i was walking frantically out of the dmv...suicide would be a pleasure. I am not advocating that but I dont family support and I dont have a husband and probably will not. I dont know what else to do. I am holding down my job but its b/c i have someone who knows me working with me. He did everything for me at one point but now has declined to do that. He would help me get food and things i needed when I couldnt but now I dont have that. His wife(and i think a few others) told him not too but when I tried to explain her why he was helping me, she just says" do the best you can" and that was it...so its been provne that nobody sees me fit for anything and I hurts me too my heart that i feel I like absolutely nothing now. I didnt ask to be this way and for years I have been taking care of myself so I just thought i would get more help but obviously I am not worth it to anyone

hi, my son who is 14 has had OCD since he was 6, and yes it can be very, very disabling so much to the fact that just on Thursday, my 14 year old said he did not like his life anymore, well, as a mom that killed my heart, so yes, i know what it can be like. it is very troublesome at times. we do have a good psychiatrist and a very good therapist who is nice. and i cannot believe that therapist said that either. email me back and let me know, keep the chin up, there are people on here who care.

hi
i just read yr last thread here...wow, i see that u are going thru some hard times.i just want to tell u that i too have been thru some very horrible times lately myself.last few months i have been so tormented i cd not tell if i was living or was having a nightmare.really..i actually pinched my skin throughout the day.i have also thought taking my life wd grant me peace. and yet i will not do this b/c i KNOW this ocd is beatable.I have beat it before.
Years ago I used to have ocd rituals from the moment i awoke till asleep .yes all day..This was when i first came down with ocd.Little by little i rid myself of all of it except maybe one or two little minor things.But this ppast year i had a horribly traumatic experience and and i found myself obsessing all the time again.ocd interacts w/stress.What i tell myself and am telling u is that we are not bad in ANY way b/c we have ocd .In fact most ppl i ever meet with ocd are exceptionally conscientious and good people.If we were incompetent,lazy or bad we wd not care so much about all this.Its b/c we are truly MORE than ocd that we are so bothered.It is a difficult disorder .U have a lot of strength and endurance building within just by going thru ocd everyday.U are soooooo worthy .all of us are.Just wait,u will get better...be able appreciate life more than ever before...there are some good ways to get help-therapy,books etc.Most ppl do not understand ocd and find it hard to accept it.Some of the things u need them for may actually make ocd worse..this can be helpful for u to see..being left alone means u will find god even moreso.That is the other side of this coin.Plus u have all these people HERE who truly ,truly understand ,know the suffereing of ocd.
we are here for u.