First, it's been a while and I'm glad you're back... or have I just been totally missing you when you're on the board? Anyhow... I do this too but I wonder sometimes if it isn't my inability to have what I'm feeling in the present moment. For example, if John does something or says something that should probably offend me, I won't recognize the offense until later. I guess that because I didn't defend myself at the time, it sort of stays under my skin and eats at me until I recognize what it is that has me feeling bad. By then it's too late. Once I've zeroed in on it, I dwell on it and I know it isn't fair. I should speak up when it happens and be done with it. But I can't seem to feel things when they happen. It takes time for me to identify what I'm feeling. John calls it me giving him a Federal Express package with all of my pent up frustrations coming out at inappropriate times. I guess he's right.

No, you haven't just been missing me. I just moved and have been pretty depressed and uncommunicative lately.....what you said is so perfect, I do EXACTLY that! I always feel like i should have stuck up for myself at a later time and just didn't feel present in the moment. thank you for your reply

I do the same thing. I just can't let some things go. And it is usually things that hurt my feelings.

oh heck ya..i find that having ocd..iam like an elephant i never forget something especially when it hurts me...I always move past it though and i know you will too.

But another thing i find is when iam hurt i not only replay what hurt me at that moment, but it triggers other times i was hurt as well, and then i start bringing in those old emotions to the present one..

so its like i feel extra hurt..even if the hurt was something small...

being hurt never feels good..or it would be called something else...

me having ocd i have babygirl feelings i call them...the liliest thing upsets me...but lets face it, one of the reasons would be constant ocd repeats of things that have happened to me.

hell i dont even know how to take a joke anymore.

but it does pass
i hope i have helped somehow
and didnt blabber to long
have a sweet night hun
and tons of pixie dust for you for those wishes.
brew

yea
the things that stay with me the most are related to ocd.like if she says something about how she really dislkes my ocd or if she doubts me too ,like my ocd...it can seem much more difficult then.