My content of OCD can change. I've had several types of obsessions.

Mine has changed over the years. I used to obsess over checking outside several times (out the window or door), but that has changed drastically since going to counseling. I still pick my scabs but only every so often. I twittle with my hair more now than I used to. Usually when I sit still and my hands are idle is when I do these things.

I have always noticed that my OCD can change form. Odd forms. It's very sinister, because it seems to pick out what you're most afraid of. It makes you very alarmed.

Nice to meet you Mrs. Beach.

I hope that this group can help you feel better. We're all in the same boat.

Thanks Beatlesfan2002 for the welcome. I appreciate it.

I totally agree that OCD attacks us in the areas which mean the most to us.
Mine tends to torment me with fears that my home of over 30 years will be taken from me (by a wildfire or condemned by an inspector) or that I am obliged to do some embarassing and difficult thing or I will be damned to Hell (Send money to people from my distant past, look up and apologise to former coworkers, tell authorities on neighbors and relatives who are breaking local laws--anything I really do NOT want to do!)
I have also had health OCD (checking a spot over and over for signs of skin cancer, making a breast sore from searching over and over for "abnormal" areas) , and quite often when I send a check in the mail I end up opening it to make sure I didn't forget something.
What helps? Exercise does. So does 5-HTP, which I used to take with Inositol powder , until I learned that inositol powder is used by cocaine dealers to cut their drug and I got paranoid about ordering so much of the stuff over the internet. This forum is an immense help , as well.
Thank you all for being there!

Counting, cleaning, checking and if you don't do something it tells me, everyone I know will die.

I know everyone's ocd feels like the worst to them. I really do have the worst of both worlds. I'll Explain. I have harm ocd thoughts and what I think about _________. That's my ocd. I have 2 daughters so everyday is a struggle. I try to keep normal the best I can. I'm just not comfortable around kids anymore. I don't like them touching me, I know it's rediculous but my brain doesn't accept it. I'm always thinking about what if I think this or think that. If I don't have kids my life would be much easier. I love my kids more than anything so I will never leave them.

I don't let the thoughts effect me. I know they are messed up and irrational and not me. They don't give me anxiety anymore. But everyday they are there and it's made me not care if I die anymore. It's sad but true. I don't want to die but if I got sick and died I wouldn't be scared. I know we all die and before I wanted to live forever but not like this. I'm 30 and maybe have a long time to live with this. I'm going to work, playing with my kids, keeping busy because I want and need to. I'm not going to let it depress me. It's very very messed up that my brain won't move on. I wish I could take it out and stomp the crap out of it. I love my hobbies but my ocd gets through once in a while and intrudes on them.

We only live once so F it. Let's jut deal with this BS the best we can. I wish my could go back to a year ago. But it won't. Soooooo. Hello ocd life. I'm going to dominate you even with a clouded brain.

You are doing exactly what you should be doing to fight your OCD--keep right on playing with your kids in spite of the fears that you will harm them.
OCD would like nothing better than to deprive you of what means the most to you, which is your family, and if you should give up and leave them or stop interacting with them, it will find something just as painful to torment you with.
Hang on there!

My OCD challenges are mostly with numbers and omens. They haven't changed in 30 years and I don't expect them too, now. I've found that Luvox helps a lot, decreases thought frequency and extent.

i relate. for me its in the form of audio hallucinations, verbal statements and words.

like when I am around a black person the word "nigger" continuously pops into my head over and over. or if I am around a kid the phrase "child mollestor". this is what I deal with everyday. its stupid.

doesn't make sense, but the ocd makes our thoughts seem real...being able to recognize and label these thoughts as the ocd and not you, although not easy, is helpful.

It's either about me trying to control my environment (cleaning, arranging, collecting/throwing things out) or it's about my greatest fears coming real (thoughts worrying about people I love being harmed by someone who snapped, or of me snapping and harming them)

I have had obsessions change several times. Every few years I'll develop a new obsession that I struggle with for a long time, then it will subside.

Hurting people. J