Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
So, I'm not sure how to explain this.... since I've been young, I never have had the stereotypical 'male' characteristics... I'm not saying I'm gay, or have a gender idenity issue, its just..... I don't know... I had a stay at home Dad when I was growing up, and this was before it became socially acceptable... and while I don't think it bothers me.... I never let him become a male role model.... maybe it was unconcious or something... and I never had any idols growing up....
So fast-forward 20 years now that I'm a young man, I feel like my idenity as a male is still incomplete... so when I have friends around me who I feel emulate male characteristics I would like to have, I sort of become obsessed with them. Not like break into their house and smell their underwear draw.... lol.... but more like my thoughts become obsessed as to; what are they doing? what are the feeling? what have they done? what is it that they do when their not around me? they are intrussive I suppose, because how am I suppose to worry about my life when I'm obsessed with someone elses?
thansk for your help everyone in advance... :)
So fast-forward 20 years now that I'm a young man, I feel like my idenity as a male is still incomplete... so when I have friends around me who I feel emulate male characteristics I would like to have, I sort of become obsessed with them. Not like break into their house and smell their underwear draw.... lol.... but more like my thoughts become obsessed as to; what are they doing? what are the feeling? what have they done? what is it that they do when their not around me? they are intrussive I suppose, because how am I suppose to worry about my life when I'm obsessed with someone elses?
thansk for your help everyone in advance... :)
Anyway, I really struggle with general OCD ~ I pray that you may slow down a bit, and feel better. When my heart starts to thump, I TELL IT TO PLEASE STOP. Try to calm down and breathe deeply.
On another note it does sound as if you have not developed who you are as a person and due to this you seem to be looking at what other people are doing. This could signify low self esteem or low self image. both are easily treatable. What I would advise is take some time for yourself. get to know you. what defines you as a person? don't ask what others define you to be as this will pigeon hole you into the perceptions of others. focus on you. what makes you tick? what makes you happy? what do you wish to do in your life? how do you define yourself? take some time to get to know you again and in time you will become comfortable in your own skin and these obsessions will go away.
Peace!
Nick
I'm waiting for my new counselor to talk about it. I think ur right about lack of self-esteem... I feel like I have my identity as a person, but when I can qualities in policy that I wish I had... The obsession/ obsessive thoughts... I always feel like I'm two policy trapped inside one person.