Well since my boyfriend broke up with me. I been doing alot of things I useally never did. For one I always have recuring thoughts that im going to die since i tryed to kill myself over him. I try and try to make them go away but nothing ever works and im to afarid to tell any one cuz i think they're goin to think im werid. Also when i take a shower any more i have to do it a strick order if not ill get out of the shower and start all over again. I have to start with gettin wet then do body wash then shampoo then conditioner but all soap from the frist has to be off from me if i see any one me when i put the conditioner on i have to get out and start over(frist by risnin out the conditioner tho.
i also have thoughts that im goin to be alone for ever and that im goin to die a horrible death either being murdered or raped and then beaten to death or somthing..
Also if i am in the store and i see things that are out of place i have to go and strighten them up if i dont ill think about it all day. also im sorta a compussice liar no matter wat i do to try and stop it doesnt work i believe i have to lie so people like me so they dont know the real me.

Also the scarey one that i been having alot since my father had surery for his kidneys because he went into kidney failure..Is i have night mares every single night that hes going to die and that hes not goin to be there whenn i wake up. Now im pulling closer and closer to him. The dreams are horriable and scarey to no point and i want them to go away but i jus dont know how to make them go.

Please some one help me tell me if this is OCD or maybe something else.