Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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I want to die

Jaxswife4ever
Jaxswife4ever
Why me? Why am I the one in my family cursed with ocd? Why wont it go away? I am cursed with ocd and I live in hell everyday. I have read most of the posts and most of the discussions, and I havent read anything that sounds like me at all. It hurts knowing that I am so alone with my struggle and I dont know where to turn. Sometimes I think I may be worse than ocd, sometime I think I have sckizafrenic ( cant spell sorry). When does it end? When do I stop being a slave of ocd? Sometimes when I am in full ocd mode, I say to my self, if you dont do ( this or that) then it means you feel this way or that way. Is that really ocd. I know this person with skitcafrenia and she cant wear certain colors because it means something. I am scared I have that not ocd. I also have sexual intrusive thoughts and I need so bad to talk to someone about them, but my friends online are never around and I thought about mental health, but I am scared to tell someone face to face about my strange thoughts. I feel so alone and I feel so weird. When I have my thoughts I want to die. I watch that new show sometimes called obsessed and I watch how they cure the ocd, so to speak. How would I cure mine? It is so unfair. Help.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hun, you may have OCD, but I bet you also have GAD, generalized anxiety disorder.Tho, I don't see what's so GENERAL about it!ha? Anxiety , lack of serotonin, creates all kinds of scenarios in our brains. Intrusive thoughts that can be scary , morbid, or downright perverted. It's hard to believe a simple word like "anxiety" can create a palethera of abnormal thoughts to our sane brains, but it can, and does. I won't even go into the stuff I used to have enter my brain once upon a time, but I'm sure you have a reasonable clue. Stuff I'd never do in reality, but trespassed on my moral thinking. And still I get a little tweaky with my OCD, even on meds at times. I've become quite the most excellent counter in multiple of threes. ha. I say multiple , because I had to do in things in threes, BUT when I couldn't make it work,6's,9', etc. would be suffice. I really don't think schitzophrenia is in your future. And believe me, most anxiety folk think at one time or another that they have a brain tumor, are having,a heart attack, gonna go schitzo. Ask the folk in the anxiety forum for a count of hands on that one!
zilwan
zilwan
I know how you feel, I actually struggle with those thoughts here and there too. It's not everyday anymore, I'm getting better. OCD is very beatable. I've only known I had it for about a month now and there are many things you can do to relieve your stress.
Try reading up on ocd, and learn methods that might help you. I believe whenever you have one of these thoughts, confront it. It's hard to use an example since you didn't really go into detail.
Ocd goes hand and hand with my depression and anxiety. Say Im driving in my car and I know how obsessive I am about losing my X girlfriend because she left me. Well when I realize I get in that state of mind I confront it. Like Kuno said in a different post, i believe our minds do these things to relieve stress but the exact opposite happens.

Such as im feeling sad, so i listen to my depressing music that i like, that only makes me worse and worse. Now when I get at that point, i confront the ocd part that makes me want to play sad music over and over again. and i put on a happy or different type of music. Next thing u know u arent obbession over anything bad.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hun, you are not the only one who is suffering from these unwanted intrusive thoughts. I have terrible unwanted sexually intrusive thoughts. I also have violent intrusive thoughts. They scare me and make me sick to my stomach. For the longest time I isolated myself when I had these thoughts (and sometimes I still isolate myself) because I am so afraid of them. But I know that I have to tell myself that these thoughts are just that thoughts and they are not apart of me. Stay strong and know that we are all here to listen. You are not as alone as you think. hang in there!
kbr0632
kbr0632
You are not alone. My daughter who is 13 has the same thoughts. You have OCD. It sucks, but you are going to get through this. I suffer from panic, anxiety, OCD, depression. It really sucks...but I have to put one foot in front of the other and take one day at a time. Sometimes..one minute at a time. I would suggest seeing a therapist who SPECIALIZES in anxiety disorders, specifically OCD. You will see that you are not the only one with these thoughts. They have heard it before. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Talking to others makes you feel no so alone. Talk to us. Tell us what your thoughts are. Tell us whatever you can't tell anyone else. It will be okay.
deleted_user
deleted_user
try being mindful and knowing that how yuo're feeling will pass, it always does, and if you keep that in mind it makes it a little easier. make sure you get your meds in order and talk to a tdoc maybe once a week, journal, stay on ds, and keep distracted. i read to do so, but if thats not your thing figure out what is.
Jaxswife4ever
Jaxswife4ever
thank you for all the support, it helps knowing I am not alone in my struggle.