Don't worry. Ever since I started talking to you, you've been fine. You don't have DID and you don't have Schizophrenia. While talking to you, you've never switched... and to tell you the truth, people with DID know that they have switched (and quite often you can ask them to switch for you)

I think this all has to do with your OCD is can cause hypochondria (where you believe things are wrong with you, but it may not necessarily be true) It was definitely like that when I was first diagnosed with OCD. I had so many bad thoughts it was starting to take over my life. Please, take your medication, the meds can really be helpful... especially if you don't want to have thoughts like these.

Thanks Love23101, you're always there for me when i need someone to listen, and i appreciate that. :)

No problem, that's what I'm here for!

Its terrifying, but it gets better. I'm so sorry

The fact is if you had either of these disorders you would not be so hyper-aware, or even questioning as in-depth as you have been. You have OCD. Whether it is mild, moderate, or severe, I do not know. Have you taken the Y-Bocs test? It is available online. You need to find a good cognitive behavioral therapist who will help you manage these tortorous obessive thoughts. You also may need medication atleast in the early stages of treatment. Get help now. It is the best thing you can do for yourself. If you don't have insurance, that will make matters more difficult but let me know and I would be happy to help you with some research.

Thanks Bathmach, i am just worried about it not just being OCD :(

Don't worry :) although i know that it is almost nearly impossible to not worry and obsess on things...trust me I have been in your same shoes..just different fears..but my fears were just as scary to me as these fears are scary to you. I had fears of people I love dying, fears of gaining weight (dumb I know but it was serious-I had bulimia), all kinds of things....I was really sick and actually was hospitalized for OCD. I am not trying to push my religion on you, but I am a Christian..and finding God set me free from my OCD...I finally relised after reading the bible..that the devil is real and the devil has demons that will lie to you to scare you and try to make you believe you are loosing your mind when your not and try to convince you to take your life..his reason to do this is because the devil is most happy to see you miserable because he is miserable because he is condemed to hell for all eternity and wants everyone who is happy to go there with him..the devil doesn't want you to be happy..your mind is a battlefield..and if you pay attention to the lies the devil whispers to you, it will consume you and take over your life..but it doesn't have to be that way..if you canfind the strength God already put in you, start standing up to the devil and start ignoring his lies..he will stop..but a warning, once you overcome these lies the devil will try to whisper to you more lies..he knows your every fear and weakness and he knows perfectly how to upset you. But the good news is that God is real too, and I don't know if you are a christian or not or if you know God. But God loves you like a father..like a good father..he cares about every little thing about you (from hunger, to if your back itches, to if you are worried about who is going to win the superbowl) and He wants to have a intimate relationship with you every day of your life..God can show up randomly daily in your life..from just a randoom stranger who does a kind gesture to reading something out of a book that really spoke to heart...nothing is ever a coincidence..every coincidence that happens is God communicating to you...if you want to learn more about God you can youtube; Joel Osteen he is the best teacher of God. And you can start battling these intrusive devil thoughts, with God thoughts which sound like this: Devil, you can't control my life my God controls everything or Devil, I am not getting dissociative identity disorder...and if for some reason I did God promises that everything that happens to me will work out for my good, or you can start telling the devil that God holds you and your life in the palm of His hands, and that God directs my ever step and that I am exactly where God wants me to be, and that God promises that the depth of my past is the height of my future, and devil whatever happens to me is in God's control..when you start replacing the fears the devil is telling you with God's promises..you will start to live in victory over your thoughts :) I hope this helps..it's the only thing that got me through my disorder..here is a fun exercise I use to do: some days, whether it was a good or bad day, I would purposely go and do one nice gesture for some..whether getting coffee for a friend or just being driver friendly and letting a stranger cut in..I would do these nice things because I could begin to see God respond to my nice gestures..and he responds by giving you favor from people or something good will happen back to you..some else would do something nice back to me..it's just a way to see God :)

Damn, your long winded!

yep :) always have been

I am really sorry that you are struggling this bad with these thoughts, but I am also glad that you posted about them. I have the same fears that consume my mind all the time recently. It does help me somewhat when I do realize that I would know already if I have one of those disorders. My distress about this stuff is somewhat recent (about 4 months or so, although it feels like a lifetime). Are you on medication, or just trying to deal with it on your own?