Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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Jaxswife4ever 12/02/2008

ok, so I have ocd. I hate who ocd makes me, and I hate the thoughts I have. Why do my thoughts "pop" into my head at weird moments? I can be watching tv and what ever is on will make me have a intrusive thought about what ever is on. AHHHHHHHHHH I cant take it sometimes. I don't feel the way my thoughts are, so why think them. I am so scared that I am skitafrenic, that I freak out. I don't hear voices, but my thoughts make me arguee with my self. It is like my evil twin that tells me something, and I say "no that is not true, and I don't feel like that." and then I have to say it about a hundred million times. Does anyone else feel this way? Am I alone in my constant struggles? I am to the point where I talk to my self outloud. I know people can hear me. I just choose to continue to act weird. If there is anyone who can help me, and give me advice, I would greatly appriciate any help. Thank you in advance.

Jaxswife4ever 12/03/2008

Thank you so much. It is nice knowing I am not alone. I got so bad one time, I didn't even want to live. Sad huh? I do want to live, I have a lot of support, and I love my family.

deleted_user 12/03/2008

You are def not alone. I tell it to shut up out loud. You are arguing with the ocd not yourself when you tell it to stop. It is like our brains search for the things we dont want to think. That is the nature of ocd. I still think it is Satan trying to ruin my life and he is full of lies.

We are here for you hugs

deleted_user 12/03/2008

You are sooooooooo not alone. And you aren't schizophrenic. That's a whole different animal. Still, OCD can be debilitating and I think we all know exactly how you feel. If you can do some therapy to help you with it, that would be best. Take care and keep venting. I think it helps.

deleted_user 12/03/2008

oh yea
this is what is called "pure obsession"
i have it too.getting better but still struggling a bit.
so yea,the evil twin.exactly.
Ill have the ocd voice say something like
"u like this imagery"...or this or that
and it can seem kind of true.But its like yr on different tracks.If u get on the ocd track which is a brain out of balance and mind that is self ABUSIVE the idea will seem true.But when u can think clearly for a sec u will recall ,feel the truth.
u know u arent like this.OCd comes in many forms,tricks .a bit of agenius?but u we are more so.we created it after all.
thus we can "destroy it" by letting it pass.
gentle..when it screams ,let it cry itself out...
peace..

Jaxswife4ever 12/03/2008

Thanks for all the help guys. I just cant seem to get rid of the ocd. I have tried zoloft, and no help. Everyone asks me what I want for christmas. I want to be normal.

deleted_user 12/03/2008

Are you living my life? I mean to say , I feel that all the time, a bzillion times a day. The thoughts are always there. Sometimes quite, sometimes load...but always there. I have told myself it's like having brain hiccups. You are not alone. Take care and hang in there.

deleted_user 12/04/2008

hugs Jaxwife. I think we have all just wished the ocd would just stop and we could live "normal" lives. It is like someone who has diabetes. I am sure they wish they could eat sweets and junk food sometimes. But it is part of their daily life unfortunately. Are you one to be very caring and dont want to hurt people? I know that is one thing i found out about myself bc of the ocd. I knew I was a caring person, but I now am more compassionate bc I struggle and I know how it feels to be sad. Not that I want the thoughts in my head. It is a daily thing for me. But eventually you will recognize your triggers (certain situations that you know you will obsess) and hopefully you will be abl to say, ok so that is ocd. I am at the point and I still do some compulsions to "erase" the thought. hugs we are here for you and we so know what it is like even if it is different for everyone.

deleted_user 12/04/2008

It's like Wolverinebob says, it's like a prosecuting attorney in your head! I am constantly defending it.

In practice, they say that you should not defend it because you are letting it win. You are supposed to sit back and accept the OCD and say, Yup, that's fine, you're right!

deleted_user 12/05/2008

I have a really stupid way that sometimes works. Not when its really bad though. I imagine that the voice really is someone in my head and then I imagine punching them in the face or something like that. Its really stupid but it sometimes helps me.

susheila 12/05/2008

Read the book IMP OF THE MIND it will give you life changing insight

deleted_user 12/08/2008

Man, I talk to myself all the damn time. I talk to the tv too. I don't do it when I'm around other people, but I do it all of the time when I'm alone.

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