Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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FEELING HOPELESS

Katie12345
Katie12345
This is one of my journal entries for today and I know it sounds more like depression based, but the cause of all my depression is OCD-based. Any help would be great. Thanks.

Life truly stinks. I am now at a point in which I truly believe there is no hope left. I do not believe my parents know how horrible I am feeling despite the fact that I have told my mom how I am feeling. My head is killing me and I feel like crap. I am so low right now that I do not think I have been lower in my life. I have officially stopped tried asking for help. I do not care anymore. This is the way in which I am supposed to feel, so I better get used to it. I know longer care if I look sad and depressed in public anymore, I used to try and put on a fake smile so I would not look so sad, but I do not care anymore. My mind is racing so fast that I no longer try to see what and where it is going. It pains me to walk, it pains me to get up out of bed, it pains me to think. There really is nothing left to say except for the fact that I am absolutely alone and horrible.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I think you may need to get professional help. Do you take medication yet for your ocd? If not, a doctor may be able to perscribe something that will help you.
deleted_user
deleted_user
other people would call that 'hypomania'... i call it reality... wish i had better words than 'try to find a medication that works' but thats all i have to offer... amitriptiline worked wonders to stop the racing thoughts of despair... to bad it doesnt work anymore...
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hm, sounds like me more often than not. Not sure that helps other than to say that I guess if we both feel like we're stuck in this alone then we must not be.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hi sweetpea, Dont you give up. There is hope in all things. I know with your ocd and anxiety very stronge right now..It is taking lead in everything. But babygirl it does calm down, And the thoughts relax, and the anxiety stops. Its not always like this. And i know its scary and seems to last more then we can handle, but thats when the winds start to change. Sweety if your meds arent working ask to switch to something else like paxil, or lexapro. These both work for me. Anxiety med i use is xanex, and this is for the times i just cant seem to get a grip. I know an ocd life can suck, but it can be wonderful too :) You are in my thoughts.
BIG HUGS
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