Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
It is slightly better at the minute but I go through phases:
When it's bad, I get intrusive, distressing thoughts that I find terrifying. They display my fears and worries coming true. I question everything I do and check myself to check if i give out 'vibes'. I constantly look for bad omens and I don't repeat actions that I associate with a specific distressing event, for example the time when I was very ill, and I always worry. I worry about my family and friends and the world ending. I can think one thing and then BAM suddenly I have this massive panic attack. OCD tricks me into thinking the intrusive thoughts are real and it doesn't stop- all the time I feel like banging my head against the floor. So for me, it is more mental with intrusive thoughts that preoccupy me. I also wander if I am going mad and I worry that I could hurt someone or go mad- especially when I read stuff about mother's killing their children and I worry if that would me in 10 years time when I have kids. I question my own sanity even though I think I am fine.
When I have a good period, I just get niggling thoughts in the back of my head about things I find distressing and I can't even enjoy it not being that bad. Usually, I obsess that because the thoughts have stopped slightly, they are real and my subconcious has accepted them as true. I sometimes believe they are true and when I read something about suicide or somthing, I worry I would do it and not be able to stop myself. I like patterns and routine and I have to go to bed every night with a full pint of water. I can handle it at the minute but I just want confirmation I am OCD. What shall I do? Nobody knows apart from my friend and she can't do anything. It stops me looking at people and being with my friends and just enjoying life.
When it's bad, I get intrusive, distressing thoughts that I find terrifying. They display my fears and worries coming true. I question everything I do and check myself to check if i give out 'vibes'. I constantly look for bad omens and I don't repeat actions that I associate with a specific distressing event, for example the time when I was very ill, and I always worry. I worry about my family and friends and the world ending. I can think one thing and then BAM suddenly I have this massive panic attack. OCD tricks me into thinking the intrusive thoughts are real and it doesn't stop- all the time I feel like banging my head against the floor. So for me, it is more mental with intrusive thoughts that preoccupy me. I also wander if I am going mad and I worry that I could hurt someone or go mad- especially when I read stuff about mother's killing their children and I worry if that would me in 10 years time when I have kids. I question my own sanity even though I think I am fine.
When I have a good period, I just get niggling thoughts in the back of my head about things I find distressing and I can't even enjoy it not being that bad. Usually, I obsess that because the thoughts have stopped slightly, they are real and my subconcious has accepted them as true. I sometimes believe they are true and when I read something about suicide or somthing, I worry I would do it and not be able to stop myself. I like patterns and routine and I have to go to bed every night with a full pint of water. I can handle it at the minute but I just want confirmation I am OCD. What shall I do? Nobody knows apart from my friend and she can't do anything. It stops me looking at people and being with my friends and just enjoying life.
Wow, I feel like you just discribed my OCD symptoms.... Everything you mentioned above is excactly the way I feel.... I would say yes it sounds just like OCD, But Im not a Dr. You should get together with your parents and have them find you a Dr. that you can go and see. It was nice talking to you and thank you for sharing your story.
You need to challenge your negative thoughts and counter them with positive other thoughts.
Hope this helps...