Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.
I'm not yet entirely sure if this would even be considered OCD or not. I haven't talked to a docter about it just yet, but I will be soon.
I think, and am pretty sure that I do have a little OCD. And here is why-
I obsessively want to look like different women. Sounds terribly silly and pathetic and just stupid right? I know. It's hard to even admit to it. And this is more than just a young teenage girl thing, it's become more than that. It's gone to the point of disgustingly overly obsessing over wanting to look like someone else. And it's constant, over and over, I want to LOOK just like her, but than I find another beautiful woman...No, I want to look like her instead, but than back to the other girl, and than a different one.
I can't stop it. I find one person I want to look like, one beautiful woman and I want to change my entire look, the way I dress, my EVERYTHING. Sometimes so, all the way down to wanting to talk like them, act like them. (No, this isn't creepishly stalking anyone, or anyone that I know personally for that matter. It's famous people, usually. Gorgeous models, beautiful actresses) And they are ALL different. They all look different.
Over and over again, so constant. I just can't help it.All the way down to sitting in myroom in dim lighting, doing mymakeup, because it makes me look a little more like them. Doing EVERYTHING in my power to look
more like them.And it never stops. And I never look like them...and it's because I don't look like them, I look like me. I just can't find it in me to accept "Me" and to be happy with "Me" and I hate that.
It never seems to stop or go away. I just don't want to look like me, I want to look like someone else. And I know, it's pathetic and stupid. But I can't seem to help it. And it's horrible, and terrible. I don't want to be like this. I would be more than happy to be just okay with myself. I don't even have to be happy with me, just accept me, that's all. It just doesn't seem that simple.
Anyway, I was wondering if anyone thought this might be OCD or not. I also do have OCD in other places as well. Nothing terribly
serious, I just wash my hands uncontrollably over and over (I notice it's usually really extremely bad when I'm in termoil and things aren't going
well) to the point that my hands are dried out and red. And I obsessiveIy don't want anything to change. I hate any type of change, usually in my house. I don't like furniture to be moved or anything rearranged. Everything HAS to stay in it's place. Even just a simple item such as candle in my living room being in a different place, and not on the coffee table like I had it. It needs to be put back or I don't feel okay.
Just one thing that is out of place, and I freak. But my mother doesn't understand this, and I can't do a thing about it when she wants to rearrange the shelf in the living room. But I won't get into that! (Laughs)
Thanks to anyone who read my rambling. Also sorry for any wrong grammar or mispelled words, I am in a rush. And If you could give me your say on what you think this is, that would be great. Thank you.
I think, and am pretty sure that I do have a little OCD. And here is why-
I obsessively want to look like different women. Sounds terribly silly and pathetic and just stupid right? I know. It's hard to even admit to it. And this is more than just a young teenage girl thing, it's become more than that. It's gone to the point of disgustingly overly obsessing over wanting to look like someone else. And it's constant, over and over, I want to LOOK just like her, but than I find another beautiful woman...No, I want to look like her instead, but than back to the other girl, and than a different one.
I can't stop it. I find one person I want to look like, one beautiful woman and I want to change my entire look, the way I dress, my EVERYTHING. Sometimes so, all the way down to wanting to talk like them, act like them. (No, this isn't creepishly stalking anyone, or anyone that I know personally for that matter. It's famous people, usually. Gorgeous models, beautiful actresses) And they are ALL different. They all look different.
Over and over again, so constant. I just can't help it.All the way down to sitting in myroom in dim lighting, doing mymakeup, because it makes me look a little more like them. Doing EVERYTHING in my power to look
more like them.And it never stops. And I never look like them...and it's because I don't look like them, I look like me. I just can't find it in me to accept "Me" and to be happy with "Me" and I hate that.
It never seems to stop or go away. I just don't want to look like me, I want to look like someone else. And I know, it's pathetic and stupid. But I can't seem to help it. And it's horrible, and terrible. I don't want to be like this. I would be more than happy to be just okay with myself. I don't even have to be happy with me, just accept me, that's all. It just doesn't seem that simple.
Anyway, I was wondering if anyone thought this might be OCD or not. I also do have OCD in other places as well. Nothing terribly
serious, I just wash my hands uncontrollably over and over (I notice it's usually really extremely bad when I'm in termoil and things aren't going
well) to the point that my hands are dried out and red. And I obsessiveIy don't want anything to change. I hate any type of change, usually in my house. I don't like furniture to be moved or anything rearranged. Everything HAS to stay in it's place. Even just a simple item such as candle in my living room being in a different place, and not on the coffee table like I had it. It needs to be put back or I don't feel okay.
Just one thing that is out of place, and I freak. But my mother doesn't understand this, and I can't do a thing about it when she wants to rearrange the shelf in the living room. But I won't get into that! (Laughs)
Thanks to anyone who read my rambling. Also sorry for any wrong grammar or mispelled words, I am in a rush. And If you could give me your say on what you think this is, that would be great. Thank you.
Many people, including me, have multiple disorders I battle. For me anxiety and compulsive eating are ones I battle. But my most powerful disorder is OCD. My doctor and I have both come to the conclusion that my other disorders are direct off-shoots to my OCD, yet they still have to be dealt with.
Either way you're on the right track getting help from a professional mental health counselor. He or she may refer you to someone who has a specialty in a certain disorder. Hang in there!