Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Support Group

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is a psychiatric disorder, more specifically, an anxiety disorder. OCD is manifested in a variety of forms, but is most commonly characterized by a subject's obsessive (repetitive, distressing, intrusive) thoughts and related compulsions (tasks or rituals) which attempt to neutralize the obsessions.

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Ros078000
Ros078000
This is my first time posting on here. I mainly have anxiety with OCD. I've had a friend who I met I became closer to her then anyone else in my life. she was always there for me when I needed her. In my episodes of anxiety and or OCD my anger can turn on anyone and become more like rage. I ended up yelling at her very harshly we tried to stay friend but she told me she couldn't look at me the same way. I'm use to friends and other people leaving my life cause of my behavior and illness at times but this one hurt the most. I don't know why I even bother with people it ends all the same. I just want to hide away cause I know sooner or later that person will see me for who I am nothing but a madman. I'm tired of losing people because of it.
deleted_user
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You should seek anger management help. I'm less angry now that I have ocd than before. I understand my emotions control my life now and I need to keep them stable.

We are the strong ones. People without ocd can live without thinking twice about stuff. We have to always think.

I know the feeling of rage passing through your chest. The best anvils I can give you is this. When you feel it. Just sit down and do nothing. Put a fan on you or get a nice water. Just sit the hell down. In a couple minutes you can think clearly. No one will be hurt and nothing will be broken.
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First of all, you're not a madman. You have a complex personality disorder and with this comes changes in your personality. I have snapped off at my husband and felt so bad afterwards, not knowing if it was OCD or hormones, or what. Maybe seeing a doctor about prescribing some mild anti-anxiety medication may help. Deep breathing always helps me to focus. Once you recognize your triggers and put a plan into place, you'll see your anger decrease. You are worthy of love and companionship. Don't give up on you.
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I understand how you feel. I have lost jobs and friends because I feel that people have a hard time understanding what we go through. Do not give up on people we have a lot to give to each other. You will find your balance in life. It is good you know that you had an issue with your friend so you can work on not letting it happen again. There are lots of people on this Earth and your going to find a good friend again.
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I agree with Jabnu in getting anger management help. Personally, I found that medication helps me but does not 'cure' the anger. I surround myself with people that know and understand my OCD and what comes along with it. They help to alert me to when I am getting out of control without even realizing it. Does she know you have OCD and what it consists of? If she does, she should understand or try to understand what you are going through. If not, maybe you should talk to her about it so she better understands what you are going through and that it isn't you-it is this frustrating disease that is more common than people realize. Good luck to you.