In the past month of January, my OCD has been both good and bad. I have had a few improvements on a few obsesssions and compulsions. I can remember one thing I've improved on is spending less time with my toothbrushing. I still am obsessive with using too much toothpaste. There are a few obsessions and compulsions I am still struggling with lately. I am still struggling with getting stuck on the toilet with my compulsive, physically abusive behaviors such as straining, banging my back and counting with my fingers. I find this obsession to be really irritating and I am getting very tired of it. I take long showers and baths and my parents and brother complain at me. I remember in the past month breaking the shower head when I was fighting with my mom. It was simply awful and I felt embarassed and bad about it. I have a compulsion where I shave more than once, making my skin feel raw and itchy. Sometimes I cut myself in the proccess. I use an excessive amount of shampoo and conditioner when washing my hair. My parents, brother complain about this also.I get upset at myself for using to much shampoo and conditioner. Lastly, I use an excessive amount of toilet paper. My parents, brother complain at me and I get angry at myself for this obsessive behavior. I feel my OCD can be frustraiting and difficult to deal with. Despite the frustration, I try to be optimistic and do the best I can. I hope to get better in the next month. This is all for now.

Take care,

Silkroad