Hi TC40.
I am so sorry you are going thru this. It can be a vicious cycle. Maybe start with your doctor to get your depression treated and get under a medical diet that you can live with and ask for excercise that don't involve walking, like swimming, etc.
My best to you.....

I agree with retired. To have any success in weight loss you have to go to the root of the problem that caused your obesity in the first place. Getting that fixed is really important with having success in any kind of weight loss. Don't give up there is help out there. I use to have the same problem and never think I could overcome. When I figured out that incredible woundedness was the source of my problem it was the first step in my healing. I have lost 155 pounds with that truth and my binging, emotionally eating and overeating has stopped 75%. Love yourself enough to see yourself through this because from a person who has been through it success is possible.

I agree with the other two ladies.
As for some work out options that might be doable, try water workouts if you are able to swim.
Also you can do "sit and be fit" style work outs. Believe it or not these can still help you lose some weight. If you don't have weights use cans of soup or veggies as weights. Also just move, any kind of movement more than you normally do is helpful. Make healthier eating choices where possible and set mini achievable goals so that you will see progress.

I wish you the best of luck, never give up! I always tell people, if you keep trying you may not have a 100% chance at success, but if you give up you have a 100% chance of failing. As Dory said, just keep swimming :)

I bought some walking poles today. I think they may be able to help me walk by supporting my lower back.

Hi TC40

Have you ever considered gastric banding. I know a lot of ppl that were quite big that got it done because they were in a vicious cycle they couldn't get out of and it has been quite successful.

I don't know how your health system works but here you can join a health fund for 12 months and they will pay most of the costs.

I don't know if that will work for you or not but for many of my friends it has worked wonders.

I hope you find an avenue that works for you and you can start o feel better soon

Dont give up none of us are hopeless, you need support and a community that will offer support and feed back even if they are not quite in the same boat as you.
I am a good example, and I am not giving up.
I took steps first I started with making a plan, I listed what I can do like ask for help,
find two friends to hold me accountable,
found a small plate and glass and cup to make my meal feel special.
talked with my family and asked them not to tempt me.
Got my doctor to give advice
I checked out my options and decided that severe RNY gastric surgery (paid for by provence I live iin is not the way I want to go)

I has my medical from stem to stern, sleep apnea, BP, Cholesterol, etc all done, foound out I had H Pilori and yeast over growth in my digestive system,
and other stuff but I am doing good as I was treated.
Decided I would be the one calling shots.
I have changed my eating style, got out of house atleast 3 times a week volunteering helps.
went to a support group foor childhood abuse, and so on.
I am loosing weight not sure how much yet but I have a smaller pair of pant Iand I can just get them done up.
I an investigating a gym with a friend tomorrow, I had saved money for the gastric bipass so figure that will do better.

What ever you decide there are others out there who are going through it to. fiind them and do an activity together.

I agree as well of you get proper treatment with your mental health..with meds and group sessions on helping you think more cleary. YOU need to get your depression state stable before you can do anything else. Once you are stable, your mindset will be much better and lead a much better lifestyle. I have been reading your posts for awhile now and please seek proper mental health. Your mind and body will thank you.Wishing you all luck..Liliann

I would have the lap band tomorrow if I could. It would cost a lot of $$$, which I don't have. As far as mental health, I have bipolar and I am under the care of a psychiatrist.

I have just given up. I seriously feel hopeless

When I joined DS, I didn't think I would survive & my name was Hopeless1955. I finally got a psych & therapist, they straightened out my meds which made a drastic difference. Got me out of a very dark, deep depression. I too have lower back pain & I am very unstable walking because, I think, I just literally went w/o moving around for too long & kept gaining weight. and now have no muscle. If you have a gym available, or somewhere that has water aerobics, that is fantastic. I was so embarrassed the first time I put on a swimsuit, with swim shorts, but I decided it was too important & I was going to do this for me. No one cared what I looked like & the water takes all the weight off of your joints. You can move in ways we can't on land, or at least I can't. Jogging, jumping jacks, jumping, I felt like a kid. It is fantastic exercise & really fun to boot! Our pool is shut down now & I just started back to the gym a couple of weeks ago. I am using a nustep cross trainer for cardio. It's the only cardio machine I can use right now. Have to be able to walk around a short track once before I can get on the treadmill. I'm trying to get some muscle & stability back in my legs. Something else that helped me stop binging is a medication called Wellbutrin. I don't have a clue as to whether this would work for you, but it is used for compulsive behavior as well as other things I guess. I was on 300 mg & it wasn't helping, so my psych bumped it up to 450 mg taking 300 in the morning then 150 mg mid afternoon. It immediately took away all the desire for the crap food I was living on, mostly at night. In something like 3 months, I have lost 28 pounds. Still a little over 100 to go! I've been trying to spread the one evening meal I was eating to 3 meals & a snack to keep my metabolism up & then, as I said I have just started back to the gym to do the aerobic exercise for the same reason, to get my metabolism up & try to get some strength into my legs. As for weight loss surgery, it works well. I had the lap band done. With all of these surgeries, you still have to be compliant with the rules of eating. I wasn't. It still restricts my eating as to what foods I can eat & which I can't, but unfortunately, the things I like to binge on were all doable. I lost 80 pounds, then gained it back. Or at least most of it, I have known people that have done all of these weight loss surgeries & the story is the same. Works for those that follow the rules & doesn't for those who are not compliant. You have to push yourself which is easier when your meds are right. I was coming out of the worst depression attack I have ever had & the Wellbutron helped amazingly with the snacking & types of food I eat. Then I started trying with baby steps to get my house clean (I started in a filthy kitchen & am still there), but that movement & determination allowed me to push myself to the gym. I'm still trying to learn how to eat correctly & will be moving on to add some weight machines at the gym, & HOPEFULLY, will go back to water aerobics when the pool opens.

You can do this. I know what it's like to not be able to do much exercise & I too have a bad back. Might not be as bad as yours, don't know. But if at all possible I really recommend water aerobics. It is great exercise we can do & it's fun! I also have some exercise CDs that you do from a chair. They do work. I have one that is aerobics, one that is yoga & one for Tai-Chi. I still have a lot to lose & I'm trying hard not to diet. That is something for me to break & I always do. I hope you will ask about the Wellbutron because it has helped me so much. I'm sure your psych wouldn't give it to you if it would cause you harm, but it has truly helped me with the compulsive eating. Sorry I wrote so much. I was going in to give you a hug & your journal caught my eye. Now I have said more than you or anyone else wants to hear. I just don't want you to give up. We can hold hands & push & pull each other when needed. JUST DON"T GIVE UP, IT IS DOABLE!, Tami

Hi I know how you feel. I cant walk very for before my knees or back start to hurt. I also know that I eat due to my depression and anxiety. Back when I lost fifty pounds and was feeling good I was seeing a doc for my depression and was given meds both for my depression and my weight. So I totally agree with everyone that you should address the depression first and then work on your weight thats what I am trying to do again now that I have gained so much weight back. Good luck to you.