Welcome to the group I hope you find the help and support you need.

Your not in the wrong place at all. I'm right there with you with not being able to find the motivation. I was always heavy my whole life, I was put on a diet at at a young age too. In my junior year of highschool I was between 215-230 pounds. I don't know what make me change my habits, but suddenly I started to see weight come off. I noticed I was eating right and even exercising. At my high school graduation I was down to 190 pounds, and the night before I left for college I weighed myself; I lost another 20 pounds and was down to 170. After coming back from college (litteraly 2 days later), I felt that I was heading no where. So, I turned to eating. Slowly the weight was coming back on. I even turned to purging, but I still gained the weight. Ive tried to lose weight but I had no motivation. Its about three years later and I've gained 110 pounds. Even after gaining all the weight I still couldnt find motivation. Then I recently found out I have an event coming up in October 2012. And I knew this was my chance to get down to the weight I've always wanted to be. And thats when it hit me; the only thing that can motivate me is an upcoming event. Think about it, in highschool I lost the weight so I could go to college as a new me. But, when I came back, what was my motivation then? I had none. I know once this event in october of next year passes I can easily just gain the weight again. But I've learned my lesson. I had something great and I let it go. Once I get down to my goal weight, I'm never going to let go of that ever again. If you need to talk I'm here. Your not alone. Theres so many people in the same boat as you, including me. Welcome to the group :)