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Went all the way there! Drove an hour to get there! Was there early! Sit & filled out paper work! An hour later I still wasn't seen! An hour & a half later later they called me up to the window just to inform me that the doctor had reveiwed my papers & had decided that SHE WOULD NOT SEE ME!!! BASED ON, OF COURSE!!!--THE FACT THAT I PUT MS ON THERE & THAT I LISTED MY MEDS! SHE WOULD NOT SEE ME BECAUSE OF EITHER!!! THAT'S WHAT THE GIRL INFORMED ME!!!
AND, WHEN I PROTESTED THIS, SHE SAID THAT THE DOCTOR HAD A RIGHT TO SEE OR NOT SEE ANYBODY THAT SHE WANTED OR DIDN'T WANT TO SEE! THAT IT WAS HER RIGHT & HER PEROGATIVE!!! AND, I INFORMED THEM BACK THAT IT WAS ALSO MY RIGHT & PEROGATIVE TO BE TREATED LIKE A DECENT HUMAN BEING & TO NOT BE DISCRIMINATED AGAINST BECAUSE OF MY DISABILITY!!!
I HAD COVERED THIS ON THE PHONE WITH THEM MONTHS EARLIER BEFORE I MADE AN APPT...... I VERY PLAINLY WENT OVER THAT INFO WITH THEM FOR THAT VERY REASON!!!!! BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD TO DRIVE 2 HRS ON THE ROAD & SIT THERE AN HOUR TO 2 HOURS & NOT BE SEEN! I COULD HAVE LEFT THAT MONEY IN THE BANK TO PAY ON MY KUB WITH! BUT INSTEAD WASTED PUTTING IT IN & DRIVING UP THERE--ON A BAD DAY IN THE RAIN, FOR ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!
I have had many other family doctors to do me exactly the same way!!! And, have not been able to get any for those exact two reasons right there!!!And, I had told them this up front on the phone & had told them that I did not want a repeat of this!!! That I wanted them to discuss this with the doctor & to have this issue cleared up before I made a long trip up there & wasted precious time & gas for nothing! And, she supposedly discussed this with the doctor & called me back & said that the doctor was fine with all of this!!! NO PROBLEM!!! THEN, AFTER I GO TO ALL OF THIS TROUBLE ON THE VERY DAY THAT I DESPARTLY NEEDED TO STAY IN BED & NOT REST--& ON A DAY THAT THE WEATHER WAS NASTY & IT WAS POURING DOWN THE RAIN!!! I needed to stay in bed today!
I WALKED BACK IN & GAVE HER AN ITEMIZED BILL FOR MY GAS & TIME!!!! AND, WHEATHER I GET PAID OR NOT, I FULLY EXPECT TO BE!!!!!! I TOLD THEM THAT THERE WAS NOTHING RIGHT ABOUT IT!!!! THERE WAS NO EXCUSE FOR NOT TELLING ME THAT SOONER!!!! OR, FOR LETTING ME WASTE THAT KIND OF TRIP & GAS ON SUCH A BAD WEATHER DAY WAS JUST MEAN, CRUEL, VERY DISCRIMINATING!!!! AND, COMPLETELY UNCALLED FOR!!!
So, again, I am done wrong & left feeling even more hopeless & depressed!!! And, if I die tonight then that is fine with me!!! I've had it!!! And, I've had it with this God-forsaken hell-hole place that I live in!!!
As of NOW, there is nothing left for me here! Even my best friend has deserted me in my darkest hour & is not talking to me! She has not spoken to me since this last horrible week or two--with my dog, resp... infection from hell, tooth, em with the socket, etc... So, apparently she is done with all the EM's & crisis, & bad financial affairs too! So yet again!!! This GD disease has striped me of the last few things that I had left!!! My son had already beaten me up & abandoned me! Now my only friend her has abandoned me also!
I know that they think all of this is too much to deal with & apparently do not wish to deal with it at all or anymore!!! But what about me! Us! People like us!!! We all have to deal with all of this kind of shit all day every day don't we??? Is it fair to us!? Did any of us ask for any of this fing shit!? NO WE DIDN'T!!! ALL OF US HERE WANT OUR LIVES BACK!!! OUR THINGS BACK!!! OUR FAMILIES BACK! OUR JOBS BACK!!! AND, OUR HEALTH BACK!!!
And, "This my friend is the cruelest cut of all!!!" I thought that this friend was better than that!? Was above that!? And, would be with me to the end!? WELL!!! ONCE AGAIN!!! I WAS WRONG!!!
So! I do not want to live another minute!!! But if by some chance I do make it any longer or long enough then I want to sell my place & pick up me & my dogs & head for the coast!!! It may be the end of the road for them if I do not find something immediately upon getting there! But I am dying here! And, I am going to die here soon! Because I am going to take my own life if things do not dramically change!!! And, that's as big & dramatic as it gets!!! And, if I die here the dogs won't be okay anyway!!! So, I figure I'll make it all or nothing!!! And, see what the hell happens!?
I love the beach!!! I love the coast!!! And, I find it peaceful & happy there! And, I ain't getting no younger or no healthier!!!
Thanks for reading this & for listening!!!
AND, WHEN I PROTESTED THIS, SHE SAID THAT THE DOCTOR HAD A RIGHT TO SEE OR NOT SEE ANYBODY THAT SHE WANTED OR DIDN'T WANT TO SEE! THAT IT WAS HER RIGHT & HER PEROGATIVE!!! AND, I INFORMED THEM BACK THAT IT WAS ALSO MY RIGHT & PEROGATIVE TO BE TREATED LIKE A DECENT HUMAN BEING & TO NOT BE DISCRIMINATED AGAINST BECAUSE OF MY DISABILITY!!!
I HAD COVERED THIS ON THE PHONE WITH THEM MONTHS EARLIER BEFORE I MADE AN APPT...... I VERY PLAINLY WENT OVER THAT INFO WITH THEM FOR THAT VERY REASON!!!!! BECAUSE I CANNOT AFFORD TO DRIVE 2 HRS ON THE ROAD & SIT THERE AN HOUR TO 2 HOURS & NOT BE SEEN! I COULD HAVE LEFT THAT MONEY IN THE BANK TO PAY ON MY KUB WITH! BUT INSTEAD WASTED PUTTING IT IN & DRIVING UP THERE--ON A BAD DAY IN THE RAIN, FOR ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!!
I have had many other family doctors to do me exactly the same way!!! And, have not been able to get any for those exact two reasons right there!!!And, I had told them this up front on the phone & had told them that I did not want a repeat of this!!! That I wanted them to discuss this with the doctor & to have this issue cleared up before I made a long trip up there & wasted precious time & gas for nothing! And, she supposedly discussed this with the doctor & called me back & said that the doctor was fine with all of this!!! NO PROBLEM!!! THEN, AFTER I GO TO ALL OF THIS TROUBLE ON THE VERY DAY THAT I DESPARTLY NEEDED TO STAY IN BED & NOT REST--& ON A DAY THAT THE WEATHER WAS NASTY & IT WAS POURING DOWN THE RAIN!!! I needed to stay in bed today!
I WALKED BACK IN & GAVE HER AN ITEMIZED BILL FOR MY GAS & TIME!!!! AND, WHEATHER I GET PAID OR NOT, I FULLY EXPECT TO BE!!!!!! I TOLD THEM THAT THERE WAS NOTHING RIGHT ABOUT IT!!!! THERE WAS NO EXCUSE FOR NOT TELLING ME THAT SOONER!!!! OR, FOR LETTING ME WASTE THAT KIND OF TRIP & GAS ON SUCH A BAD WEATHER DAY WAS JUST MEAN, CRUEL, VERY DISCRIMINATING!!!! AND, COMPLETELY UNCALLED FOR!!!
So, again, I am done wrong & left feeling even more hopeless & depressed!!! And, if I die tonight then that is fine with me!!! I've had it!!! And, I've had it with this God-forsaken hell-hole place that I live in!!!
As of NOW, there is nothing left for me here! Even my best friend has deserted me in my darkest hour & is not talking to me! She has not spoken to me since this last horrible week or two--with my dog, resp... infection from hell, tooth, em with the socket, etc... So, apparently she is done with all the EM's & crisis, & bad financial affairs too! So yet again!!! This GD disease has striped me of the last few things that I had left!!! My son had already beaten me up & abandoned me! Now my only friend her has abandoned me also!
I know that they think all of this is too much to deal with & apparently do not wish to deal with it at all or anymore!!! But what about me! Us! People like us!!! We all have to deal with all of this kind of shit all day every day don't we??? Is it fair to us!? Did any of us ask for any of this fing shit!? NO WE DIDN'T!!! ALL OF US HERE WANT OUR LIVES BACK!!! OUR THINGS BACK!!! OUR FAMILIES BACK! OUR JOBS BACK!!! AND, OUR HEALTH BACK!!!
And, "This my friend is the cruelest cut of all!!!" I thought that this friend was better than that!? Was above that!? And, would be with me to the end!? WELL!!! ONCE AGAIN!!! I WAS WRONG!!!
So! I do not want to live another minute!!! But if by some chance I do make it any longer or long enough then I want to sell my place & pick up me & my dogs & head for the coast!!! It may be the end of the road for them if I do not find something immediately upon getting there! But I am dying here! And, I am going to die here soon! Because I am going to take my own life if things do not dramically change!!! And, that's as big & dramatic as it gets!!! And, if I die here the dogs won't be okay anyway!!! So, I figure I'll make it all or nothing!!! And, see what the hell happens!?
I love the beach!!! I love the coast!!! And, I find it peaceful & happy there! And, I ain't getting no younger or no healthier!!!
Thanks for reading this & for listening!!!
It is snowing here now and is very cold. I am on the coast of California at present. The cold affects as much as the heat almost.
Maybe Georgia or the Carolinas are better for coastal living.
On this side of the USA it is cold and wet and lots of rain is normal. Sometimes we can get as much at 8 feet of rain a year in some parts of this county I live in.
Best of luck and remember, there is no perfect place to live.
Again, I'd move back to San Francisco if I could afford it as the climate is far more amiable.