You have my prayers things will get better.God bless

Please go to a pain clinic. I see a chiropractor and he has a sign in his office that says that "Pain is not a way of life". Pain can be treated and I hope that you can get some treatment for that. Your neuro should be treating you for that or referring you to someone who can.

Second, if you can't pee, see a urologist. They can teach you how to cath. That is what i do. I cannot pee either until I have a really full bladder but I cannot completely empty my bladder so I feel like I have to go 10 minutes later. I used to strain and that could cause a hernia. So I have to cath. It is easy to get used to and I have it much easier now. It is a much more pleasant way to go. i am always grateful that I cannot pee rather than peeing involuntarily. So us MSers seem to go one way or another.

Third, if you can't sleep, your neuro should be giving you something to sleep. MS affects my sleep and I have to take sleeping pills. I have for over 10 years and I take about the same amount so I haven't really built up a tolerance. And I don't walk or drive while on Ambien. Also, Zantaflex helps the spasticity and the sleeping. So between the two, i can sleep.

You will feel much, much better when you can pee, when you are not in pain and when you can sleep. I feel terrible when I cannot sleep. I just do not produce any melatonin and I would never sleep if I didn't take something. That is no way to live.

If you were not in pain and got some sleep it might help your cognition. Best of luck to you. Please talk to your neuro about it.

I completely understand how you are feeling, as I've been feeling the same way lately. It comes and goes for me. I thought it was depression so I am currently going back to my physciatrist (can't spell) to work on my anti-depressant cocktails. I'm just hating this damn disease so much and what it has done to me.

For your loneliness, there is a MS Group Phone Exchange. There are about 10 people on the list currently that you could call and talk to friends. Please look under Fun and Games, Phone Exchange.

PM me if you want to talk. I'll give you my number. I'm home 24/7 and would love to talk.

All the things you mention are familiar subjects. I feel your pain and isolation. There is understanding and support for you here. Sending love your way.
Val

Sounds like you could use to change things up a bit. I will pray for you. Are there other ways you can get around without driving? Can you schedule things and have someone take you? I think to start, you just need to get out and do something, anything would be a good start.

Have you tried doing some exercise? It does wonders for the mind and the body. It's good to vent. You are not alone. Hope things look a bit brighter this weekend!

My beleif, is that everything that comes our way daily, has something to teach us. I ask myself what this or that problem, coud have to teach me.

I think life is a school room & while we are here we are learning. As well, I beleive in life after death, not an ending.

All this makes everything easier for me,
try deep breatthing.

Lorna
ever heard about LDN?

I was just writing a post that sounded VERY SIMILAR tto you're. I am a 'basket case' today. I know that the only way free nd get IST of it is reaching out to GOD and follow the path he has for me. Have u ever tries that? My heart and let him guide u.

Sorry! There so many typos in mine. The basic answer is to reach out ro the lord!

Jackie,
All of us feel or have felt like you are feeling now, like there is no hope in sight and it really does suck, but suck it up is what we all seem to do best and it sucks that is what we have to do. You always have had a positive attitude and like you even though it get harder to walk, like you I resist a cane or anything else that helps us walk or be mobile. You probally like me feel like that is giving into MS, but at some point we need to look at it as a tool that God has given us to help. I can take a lot of pain, but even with pain meds some days it is hard and thank God for his natural pain relief. MS is so different for each of us we can't pee or all we can do is pee. I can still walk, even though some days it is a chore all in its self, just like driving. I'm sure your BF must really loves you as he is still there so you should let go of the stress of him leaving you. All we can do is pray that some kind of relief is around the corner to make our lives better. I'll make sure to keep you in my prayers as I do with many others here and hope you feel better soon and get some relief.
Take Care
Dave

You have my prayers too!

Without reading too far into your responses... do you have any church support? Can you even get to church?

Congnition, I use a Nintendo DS and play Brain Age plus other games along those lines. I am a forgetter. Big time. I've always been a sort of chowder head, but at one time it was getting worse.

Plus to this end, I am a big time list writer. Not sure if that helps me or hurts me. But I get stuff done when I have a list.

Be blessed my friend!
Prayin' for ya.

Amy

Really hope things get better for you, adding my prayers with everyone else s for you.
And like everyone tells me, we are here for you anytime dont shut yourself away.

I have watched your posts of the last year and know that it's been a steady battle for you. I go through phases as well where i'm just sick of the bullshit that comes with this, so I understand. Sometimes finding that positive attitude can be like climbing mount everest in a bathing suit - just impossible and not worth the effort.

One thing that has helped me is to let go of the big picture for periods of time. So you can't muster enough positive attitude to feel good, ok, but can you muster enough to push through 30 minutes of yoga? Start small. Look at the moment in your in and what you CAN do with it. I plan on opening a thread called "Small Accomplishments that make a difference" after this post to give examples of this. Sometimes, those small accomplishments carry me through.

My thoughts are with you. Hope you find some light at the end of the tunnel soon.

Thanks everyone..i feel like my day is on replay. its stupid! Cant go to pain centers or any rehab centers as i dont get my insurance till next year. i signed up with access link(public transportation for disabled) but i wont know till next month. my parents and my bf takes me where i need to go but blah. I dont havr any groups or organizations i belong to but i will..i dont have a computer anymore so my life go figure is on pause cuz of a computer! Lol ahh ill get one soon and this too shall pass by..i just need to chill n realize i will be active out in the world again just not right now. i made a list of hobbies or ideas thatvwould keep me occupied for a while. I need to stop sulking in my pity party. I just need to kick my own ass for not keeping focus on the positive things in life..thanks everyone and i keep u all in my prayers

I'll keep you in prayer. Sounds like a lot of people have provided some great ideas. I think the list of hobbies you have started is really good. I know for me sometimes just sitting outside listening to the birds, looking at the trees or other things God has created makes me feel better. It gives me time to thing of all that I have to be grateful for in my life and also to realize that the things that are getting me down will also pass.

Sometimes it helps to just scream and vent

Cathy