Is there someone who could go with you? I know how devastating it is dealing with this decision, so I will pray for you and your sweet, dear companion.
Be strong and I'm with you in prayer and in spirit, okay?

My thoughts are with you. It really bothers me that we live in a world where if you don't have the money you don't get treatment. Weather it be for humans or animals. I am sending prayers your way, I know how difficult it is to be in your position.

Paint, my thoughts and prayers are with you as you go through this rough period. Message me if you need to talk. God Bless you and yours.

I'm so sorry that you are going thru all this alone.having to have your four legged loved one put to sleep is so sad.Hold strong and remember our prayers walk with you today.

My prayers and thoughts are with you.

I have had to make the decision to put down two of my dogs I my years one after 17 yrs & the other after she was slowly poisoned by my mother in law. I miss them terribly to this day and cry everytime i think of the decisions I've had to make. You will always feel like you killed your best friend, I know I do.
That doesn't at all mean that you have the right to standby and see your best friend suffer. We are the caretakers of Gods creatures and as such must do the right thing. We must make the hardest decisions that we will never forgive ourselves for, even though it was the right one. I'm ring just writing this to you now, I know how you soo feel right now.

I sent you my phone number if you would lie to talk feel free to call me. Remember the good times and please call if yo want/need to talk

I'm sorry that you are going through such a rough time. The passing of a pet can be brutal, but I know that you will do the right thing for your doggy. I'll keep you in my thoughts, I wish you peace over the next few days with your struggles.

a shame- believe me i feel your pain- but its suffering too- hugs- id die- without my dog- so attached to him but- if i had to i would put him down-

I am at the vet right now, waiting! They are inside working on her! They agreed to a payment plan! Nothing we can do about her cancer, etc... But they are helping her ear & doing a surgical type procedure on her ear! And, doing an x-ray of her chest to see if the cancer is in her lungs yet! Want to check that before go further!

The vet just came & got me! He showed me the x-ray! The cancer has spread to her lungs! So I am going to put her down today!

Will contact later!

Thanks guys!

I am so sorry to hear this.
I have los pets inthe past and it is devastating, because they become bloved family members.
My prayers and thoghts are with you.
God bless you

Prayer's for a peaceful heart for you dear.

Paint I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I myself had a 17 yr old dalmation mix I had to put down it is a horrible feeling, but find comfort my friend in the fact that you are ending her/his suffering. Even if they dont show it...they are hurting.

We stayed with our beloved and said goodbyes and watched her slowly fall asleep...it is amazing how she knew what was happening and the peace we could see in her eyes. She licked me on the hand as I pet her right before she fell asleep. We kept her ashes and she is always with us in spirit. We miss her terribly we had her since birth, but I am glad she is no longer in pain.

Thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time, and the days to come.
HUGS
Janel

I'm home now & my dog is gone! She crossed the river around 6!? I brought her home with me! I have her laying in a crate outside my home! They wrapped her up for me! But her head is sticking out of the blanket.

I took her outside in a fenced in area at the vet clinic & spent time with her & played with her! Mostly I held her in my arms & sobbed like the baby that I am!!!! I'm still crying!!! I've been sobbing uncontrollably all day long!

I told her that I was letting her go & that I was soooo soooo sorry for ALL of her suffering! And,for any that I might have caused or might cause in what I was about to do! I told her how hard it was for me to let her go & that I did not want to let her go but that I was trying to do the right thing!? Whatever the hell that is!? The RIGHT THING--DOESN'T FEEL SO RIGHT ANYMORE.......... OR AT ALL SOMETIMES!?

SHE WAS EXCITED TO GO OUT WITH ME TODAY! SHE THOUGHT WE WERE GOING SOMEWHERE NICE TO HAVE FUN! I JUST WALKED IN THE VET OFFICE & IN A MATTER OF AN HOUR OR TWO WE WERE KILLING HER! AND, SOMEHOW THAT JUST SEEMS SOOOOO GD WRONG!!! IF IT'S SOOO RIGHT & I DID THE RIGHT THING THEN WHY DO I FEEL SOOO BAD & WHY DOES IT HURT SOOOO GD MUCH!!!???

Before they did much anything to her the vet said that we needed to x-ray her to see if the cancer was in her lungs, & it was!!! She had several & more we couldn't see! She had some surgery that had to be done if she lived! And, I, instead opted to just go on & put her to sleep! She had soooo much wrong with her & was suffering soooo much! She died in my arms around 6 tonight! It was a very very long drive home!!! They wrapped her in a blanket & stuff & placed her in the small crate of mine! She's laying in the crate outside my door! Well! Outside my fence at the back door!

Sorry if I repeat myself at all! I am such a state of confusion!? I don't half know anything I'm saying or doing right now!?

I haven't slept in nights & I am soooo GD worn out!!! I've been on the road the entire day! I made a trip to MT this morning to see my RA doc, but i had the appt day wrong! I don't see him until Friday! And, now!? I've used my gas for him today & for the long drive to & from the vet! So I probably won't get to see him Friday!? And, my other tooth went so I am having it pulled TR! Then, if I can come up with gas money & I'm able to after having my tooth taken out TR I am supposed to go back up to MT! I just can't believe that I got up & wasted such a long trip today driving sooo damned far there & back! I could have spent that time playing in the back yard with my dog one more time before I killed her! What a freakig idiot I am!!!! God!!! I hate myself right now!!!!

Today was the day from hell!!! And, coming in out here tonight in the road right in front of my driveway, a young girl driving a Jeep Hit my van! We collided! We kissed each other in passing! She was coming out & I was coming in & she was messing with the radio she said! And, we side swiped each other!!! And, killed each others mirrors! I'm still shaking!!!! We almost killed each other!!!!!!! I almost went to heaven with my dog tonight!!! And, as bad as today was & as bad as I feel after killing my dog I would have been okay with it!!! But I would not have been okay with that girl dying or getting hurt! TG that she is okay! It really scared the crap out of her!!!! ME TOO!!!! IT TOOK SEVERAL SECONDS FOR US TO REALIZE THAT WE HAD NEARLY DIED IN THOSE FEW SECONDS! AND, IT MADE OUR HEARTS COME OUT OF OUR CHEST! I MEAN, JUST A HALF INCH CLOSER, OR AN INCH, ETC... & WE'D BOTH BE DEAD!!!! OR SEVERE CONDITION IN THE HOSPITAL RIGHT NOW! A PERFECT ENDING TO SUCH A FREAKING PERFECT DAY, HUH!? MAN!!!

I have sobbed uncontrollably all day & all night now! I can't seem to stop! I'm exhausted!!! I'm going to bed early tonight! And I'm going to sleep late tomorrow IF I get to!? I have to go out tomorrow all over & try to find somebody to bury my dog for me! Maybe me with it!!!!??? The way that I feel right now!!! I AM JUST SOOO TIRED & SICK & EXHAUSTED RIGHT NOW!!! Wouldn't surprise me at all if the real bad infection--that was going into pneumonia--combined with me having the stress of killing my dog today & then the stress of having to find somebody to bury her & then burying her tomorrow; & then having a tooth pulled right on top of that, & then having to turn around the next morning right after that & make another hour trip back up to the stupid doctor office & having to sit there all day & then drive all the way back home don't do me in!!! If that don't set off some kind of super bad exacerbation I just don't know what will!?

HELL! IT'S ENOUGH TO KILL ME!!! MAY YET! MAY I DIE IN PEACE!!!

I feel sooo....... NUMB right now!? Just numb!!! I can't believe that I took my dog to the vet & we just killed her!?

They were soooo Damned nice!!!! They were so very sweet!!! Kind!!! Compassionate!!! Considerate! The vet was a guy! And, he was soooo all of the above!!!! He & the girls that worked in the vet part of it, were soooo great about all of it! They were soooo very sensitive & caring!!! They kept checking on me & TT & then came in at the end & set in the floor with us & the vet petted her & told her how beautiful she was & how she was going to be free of all pain & suffering now & not hurt anymore! He went out of his way to make sure that she didn't suffer!

She had ear mites & when she had scratched at that & the sore on her face that caused the hematoma! So now I have to treat all of my others for ear mites! The vet felt sooooo horrible about having to do it & he felt soooo horrible for me because I was having such a hard time with it! He gave me, paid out of his own pocket the girl said!? 2 bottles of ear mite medicine to treat all of my other dogs with! I have to treat them for two weeks straight! And, he got Advantage plus for all of my dogs & gave that too me too! I don't have to pay for any of that!!! Just for the office visit & for the ear tests, & the x-ray & for putting her down!

I owe them 108 bucks for killing my dog! Somehow on some level that just seems soooo wrong!? And, even though it might have been the best thing for her & all--somehow that just doesn't make me feel any better tonight!!!! I just feel soooo vile & disgusting!!!! I feel like such a horrible person for holding one of my best friends while they killed her & while she died in my arms!!! I HELD HER WHILE THEY KILLED HER! AND, I'M THE ONE THAT TOLD THEM TO DO IT!

I HAVE STARTED SOBBING AGAIN RIGHT NOW!!! I FEEL LIKE MY DAMNED GUTS HAVE BEEN RIPPED RIGHT OUT OF ME!!!!! MY HEART ACHES SOOOOO VERY BADLY RIGHT NOW........... AS I SIT HERE ALL ALONE CRYING.......

WELL! I HAVE TO GO NOW............. SORRY GUYS! I KNOW THAT THIS IS LONG & DEPRESSING, BUT THIS IS SOOOO DAMNED HARD ON ME & I'M HAVING SUCH A VERY VERY HARD TIME RIGHT NOW! I'M ALL ALONE WITH THIS SHIT & I HAD TO DRIVE AROUND ALL FREAKING DAY & THEN DRIVE ANOTHER FOREVER TO GET TO THE VET & THEN ANOTHER FOREVER TO GET HOME & HAD TO DO ALL OF THAT & COME HOME ALONE WITH MY DEAD DOG IN THE BACK OF MY VAN!

AND, SHE'S LAYING OUTSIDE AT MY BACK GATE FOR ME TO HAVE TO SEE & DEAL WITH UNTIL I GET HER BURRIED & I CAN'T EVEN DO THAT TONIGHT!!! AND, THAT MEANS I HAVE TO DEAL WITH THAT TOMORROW!

GOD!!!!!!! I JUST FEEL LIKE DEATH WARMED OVER!

WELL! THAT'S ENOUGH SHIT! I NEED TO REST! BUT FIRST I NEED TO CLEAN UP! I FEEL SOOOO DIRTY!!!

THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH GUYS FOR ALL OF YOUR SUPPORT IN ALL OF THIS!!! I WOULDN'T MAKE IT RIGHT NOW WITHOUT ALL OF YOU!!!! AND, I'M NOT SURE THAT I WILL MAKE IT ANYWAY!?

I have just taken such a pounding the past little while now! So much bad shit on top of bad shit! I just feel like I can't take anymore, anymore!!!! I'm having a very hard time hanging on right now! This God blessed disease has just takend soooo damned much from me!!!! And, it just takes & takes & takes & takes until you ain't got nothing left to take no more!!!

I've just lost soooo damned much already!!! I can't take losing anymore!!!

Well! I'm about to fall over in the floor from sheer exhaustion, so I need to go now!

Sorry guys!!! But thank you sooo very much for all of your support today/tonight!

Paint

You have to stop telling yourself that you killed her or that the vet killed her. The TRUTH is that you loved her very much and you did the most loving thing you could do. As painful as it is for you right now, you did the best, most caring, compassionate thing for her. Personally, I think she's up in heaven now blissfully running through a field of daisies.
I'm so, so sorry for your pain, Please lay down, close your eyes and try to think good thoughts now. Things will be brighter in the morning. My prayers will be with you through the night and in the future.

Darlene,
I feel so bad for you right now. Please stop saying you killed your dog or anyone killed your baby, you just put her into a long peacefull sleep and she is out of pain and no more suffering for her. You did the right thing. I had to put my cat to sleep, the cat was 18 and the my dog was 17 years old died in the bedroom with me after she went to everyone in the house and woke them up and just laid down and peacefully went to sleep.

Like you I cried like a baby for both of them. I have a framed pic of my dog, I took a pic of her the night before she died and just like us with MS she looked fine and that is the pic I have her framed in.

Both my cat and dog were just like my kids and like I tell my lab as she is getting older and grayer, I say what is Daddy going to do if something happens to you? you are my best friend in the world. I love her enough and it drives people crazy that I will get up and cook her a couple of eggs and put her favorite topping on it, Cheese, she loves her cheese.

I hope you find someone to help you bury her, I have a place in my yard where they are buried along with stray cats that get hit in front of my house. I also have an animal head stone for my babies, it is small but it is there for them and me.
So just remember you killed nothing, it is no different than unhooking life support from a loved one so they can go to heaven. You did the right thing and you will go through the mourning process and than see what you did was right and humane. Once again so sorry for your loss as we all know how much you love your dogs.
Take Care
Dave