We can't discount what you feel. I uderstand. You can't force yourself to feel good. Some days are better than others. Vent away. You're entitled to feel whatever you feel. It is all relative as my disabled stepmother said who was bedridden and I was complaining about something. We are all entitled.
I was dx at 45. I am 60 now and still walking and living on my own. It is hard at times. Try to take care of yourself as best you can.
Good luck.

One other thing--once you get your disability, do what your passion is. For me, it is political activism. Do what you love, and you will be happier. Hopefully, it will be something you could physically do.

This is such a great post! Everyone has brought some wonderful insight to this issue. I was diagnosed 12 years ago and worked up to last July when I got very sick. Like you I now have to figure things out and can't do too much waiting for disability. Do keep up with exercise, walking or whatever you can do, it helps the mind. Keep up with friends, go to lunch, talk on the phone and this forum is so wonderful! Try to stay positive. God Bless you :)

Thank you ALL. I feel better. I will keep walking even if I have to go to malls, winter here right now. I thought my MS was in the begining stage, now my memory is getting worse, had mood swings (bet that )
walking is not good and when I sit for a while at a friends house and had to ask husband to help me up( I was high) Just what is next? Tried I thought I fixed that with energy drinks, not fully. When nice weather gets here, I hope to feel better. EVER GIVE UP right?

I have a tendency to get depressed, I do take paxil for anxiety I believe it helps my depression also. I agree with everyone but at times our hormones and chemicals are unbalanced beyond our control.
Hope you are feeling better...

CNOELLERT, I am with you! That's why I am always repeating that corny old saying, 'look for the silver lining in the clouds.' (And I am always looking for rainbows!)
I was diagnosed the same time as you (Amy), but am a couple of years older, so we are in similar boats. My mobility has been more than challenging me lately, but still fighting to stay working. I think a lot of those ideas for volunteering sound good, keeping it on a small scale. And yes, we are pretty young to already having to be worrying about early retirement or mobility issues, but I do feel less badly for myself remembering all of those years that I didn't have MS symptoms, or even really know was MS was!
What you have to look forward to is life! I suspect that most of us will live much longer than the average person, just because seeing doctors so often, other problems will not go unnoticed.

Omg GeminiAmy, I totally know how you feel. I was diagnosed young too. (You look young in your photo) I was 20 when diagnosed and 5 yrs later I feel like what do i have to look forward to now?

But here is my advice...You just have to find different ways of enjoying life. It's not like you can't enjoy life anymore....just gotta find a different way of doing it.

So I used to be very active...run, rock climb, was a medic (can't do that anymore)....of course the disease has slowed me down a lot so I've found interest in other things...I draw and paint now...even if it's not picasso it makes me happy. I find shows on tv i like and make them fun to watch by "saving" the episode for every week. I take my dog to dog parks a lot (often someone else plays with him and I watch and it makes me happy to see him having fun). I'll go see a funny movie by myself sometimes...other times I just have a good chat with someone.
I have to retrain for a whole different career so I'm in college now (which sucks because I miss being a medic so bad)...you should consider taking classes for recreation...maybe a pottery class or humanities class? What about learning a new language? Your community center might offer some classes. How about volunteering? Go to volunteermatch.org to find a great match in your area...you can even volunteer virtually (online).

I just want to tell you that you can still have a great life with MS. I know how you feel because it's a super rough disease that's so ruthless and the fatigue, pain, and other symptoms make it hard to get out and have fun...but you totally can! Just keep the following in mind:
1. Energy conservation: have fun without overdoing it because you'll be paying for it later
2. Make sure who you're hanging out with knows and respects your limits
3. Don't be so hard on yourself. Don't constantly compare yourself to what you used to do.
4. Find support! (Well that's why I joined DS today lol)

Good Luck! *hugs*