I too feel your pain! I am in and out of the w/c and use a cane and wall walk. I have a few friends in other states, but don't talk to them very often. My husband works from home in an office down stairs and gives me grief if I attribute my problems to MS. I too get depressed and don't know what to do. I have used meds but the are not too helpful and the side effects have not been kind to me. I like the idea about the light and I have a Yorkie who won't leave my side. It helps a lot.

Right there with you hon (((HUGS)))

again I want to thank you for all of your help,, i have called the doc should hear back from him today.

i am glad that i am not nuts.. i am not alone.

love you guys
pj

hey, I want to again say thanks to all of you, I did call my doc was put on a low dose script, but just talking to you guys and my neuro for a while helped me, I am feeling much better already..

thank you.......................you guys are awesome!!!

PJ

PJ just think you are sad like the rest of us. Losing control is a HUGE issue. Waiting for a cure that may not come another issue and where the lesions are located yet another. I had the quadruple whammy and I still cry or no reason at any time and what's awful, anywhere! I was diagnosed with MS, dog died, kid off to college and I lost my job. So all alone in a big house in the country, no friends, husband who has no clue what it is I am going through and horrible medical care (and that is putting it quite nicely). So no you are NOT alone. So many of us out there. Too bad we just can't have an MS colony like they did leper colonies in the past where we could all commiserate together. Guess this is as close as we get. Try to find something to smile about - hard a lot of the time, but actually there are things if you dig deep.

Just my 2 cents...

I don't know if the depression or the illness came first for me; it doesn't really matter. i get help for my depression and am still seeking help for a dx and treatment of the diagnosis...

easy m... pets help so much! when my parents are looking away from me at the dinner table because my head is jerking and my right hand is shaking too much to get the food to my mouth; when i gasp in pain and mother pretends nothing is happening...

my cats cuddle up with me, they make me laugh, they stay close. they never flinch at my symptoms.

because of them and this site, i went to church yesterday despite my visible symptoms. i knew people would see me and wonder, but i figured they would get that i am ill... and i needed to be there.

animals give an unconditional love not to be duplicated.

even with this, i cry almost every night at the realization that i really am ill, that this will follow me for life, that i will not be "normal." i think this is a healthy part of the grieving process and i had to teach myself both to cry and that it is okay to cry.

you are in my thoughs...

cheers

pj22, first off, I just wish I could give you a (((big hug)))!

I hope you have friends and family that are a good support to you. I am sure it is partly the winter blahs too. The other ladies here had good advice. I don't have anything more to add, but just wanted to give you a hug and hope that things improve for you.

xo~Holly