Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
1. I am so grateful for this group and daily strength. I don't currently have a therapist so might not have been able to get to today without the support of this group and it's members. TY all!!
2. I just actually heard so e of my others for the first time since I think early college!
I know some of you might be disturbed by hearing your others, but I am greatly relieved. Heres some of my story if any are inclined...
I was more fluid and changeable before age 21. At some point after that age I was working full time in the mountains in northern California at a retreat camp. It was christian based and some of my best friends and I were planning to go to a retreat of our own. I don't remember where it was but it was to be a great weekend.
But obviously some of my team knew it would be trouble because I got severe migraines and had to be medicated and heavily drugged in order to be able to go.
But I did go. When we were there the people doing the retreat wanted to pray over each of us, for strength, blessing, also to "bind" whatever demons might be challenging us.
When they got to me, I felt really confused and upset. Everyone in my system was freaking out and I didn't realize, maybe that me wasn't aware of the others. I told them it sounded like a radio in my head with all the channels on at once.
They told me I was demon possessed, or maybe just that I had demons, which seems about the same thing. They prayed over me to cast out these demons, which were just various parts of my wounded self!!
I believe one of !my very controlling persons came into existence then and after that I didn't hear from the others in the same way. I was in therapy at the time and had been worried about being put in an institute, so I think I clamped down on all the extra activity and haven't been able to hear since.
Well, just now I was talking to the quiet others about possibly retiring our control room person (hard ass who doesn't like us being multi) and people all started talking! I heard the others talking about her or whichever me I am, I don't really know this me, I'm an amalgamation I think
But I was elated!!!! I heard my peeps again!!
Thanks for all the support at this site, it does make an impact!!
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Today I found a piece of paper amongst some old cards. On it I had some notes titled "multiple me's". I listed different traits and characters, someone who is a clown, someone who feels the need to get away, someone who is sort of trance like. And then below that I had names listed.
This was my first list of people I.d Ack owledged or learned about with names I.d given them from when I was first diagnosed like 15 years ago. Names I didn't remember and haven't been using. And one of them was out today, so its kind of really weird.
Too find a piece of yourself lying about that knew your secret 15 years ago but couldn't share it because no one was ready yet.
This shit is so like a weird Cusack movie