If you do go to hospital, we will be here when you get out. Let us know either way of you can.

I can't stand this. I was watching TV and in the last one the bad guy had MPD. The show before that the bad guy also had mental illness. I think it's giving me a message that going to the hospital is a very bad idea.

Hun, TV is giving you bad programming...
Going to the hospital is probably a good idea at this point.

I think going to the hospital is a very good idea at this point. No more self-destruction. At least talk to your therapist, and if the therapist ways go to the hospital, you bring youself to the hospital, to calm down that self-destructive part of you. While you're there, hopefully, a social worker can help you figure out some plans for your life for the next few months.

gentle hug

I don't know what is going on today. Another TV show where the bad guy was DID and of course they treated him like a piece of garbage. How are people ever accept people with mental illness when they are all portrayed as crazed killers?

I can't believe this another one just came on. They said who knows what goes on in the cesspool of his mind.

Now they are advertising another one.

@ LouM...
What show is this???

It sounds like there ought to be a petition started against this BS.

I believe there have some very poignant words being sent your way lourn particularly from hylierandom. Unfortunately shows can be very triggering and unfortunately TV portrays people in a very negative light and imho people with DID seem to portrayed in the same way as what people with schizophrenia have been portrayed in the past (out of control who are bent on mass murder). Hopefully you would have seen from participation within this group and from your own experiences that this couldn't be further from the truth. Without a doubt you do need to be kept safe and as difficult as it is going to be if the therapist is able to get you a place in hospital even if its only for a few days it may just give you a chance to ground yourself. In my experience I don't believe it will stop the SI and unfortunately I don't believe any other type of programs stop the SI. For myself the only way to stop the SI (which we still have problems with) is to actually find ways of dealing with the emotional pain in a constructive manner and pushing through the thoughts that tell me that these methods wont work. I have no doubt that you have probably done something similar and people who don't have issues with SI have no idea the efforts we will go to not SI. However in the end SI is the only thing takes away the emotional pain for 5 minutes or until we can go to sleep because of the body chemicals that rush through our body that puts us into a state of calmness.

Anyway like hylierandom asked if you could tell us what this show is it would be greatly appreciated. Most importantly it would be good to know you are taking steps to take care of yourselves even if it means doing something you hate such as going to hospital.

Take care and know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

I forget what the name of one show was, but it's a police show that takes place in Seattle. The other show was criminal intent.

I must have switched back, because I feel completely different. I still feel depressed, but not out of control or suicidal. When I received that letter, it triggered an irrational part. I even called them up and blew up at them, screaming and swearing. I feel really ashamed of my behavior now.

My granddaughters came over last night and I think that caused me to switch back. One is 2 and the other will be 13 next month. The 2 year old wants to get into every thing and the older one is chasing her around. Both of them make me laugh.

I hate when that irrational suicidal part gets triggered and takes control.

So the kids are there now? and you switched so that you are not all out of control with them? Good. Aren't you glad now that you didn't harm yourself so much that you would not be home to be with them?

You're anger reaction was at an immature level, like a kind of tantrum, but even more dangerous. maybe you can teach that part of you to not be so impulsive.

I'm back from my therapist and feel much better. My granddaughters were just visiting last night. There is no question I have DID. I had no awareness of the rational part of me. My therapist also said that was a younger part and we did talk about the feelings that triggered it.

I thank everyone for their support.

Lou

please don't do anything to harm ureself...
is there a friend or some one from the family u can call?
u should not be alone during this tiring time...
please keep posting with updates..
concerned

I feel good now. That switch was very intense.

that so tough ,,, what good is the disability if you are not here,, GET SAFE and you have to listen to others when we are in that place we need a clear head thinking for us,, My prayer is you call for help, You wont know how you will feel if you are not here but your life has meaning whether you can feel it or not we all want you safe,, CALL please

Glad you're back. :)