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Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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paranoia

KittyTwist
KittyTwist

i know that those of us with MPD/DID have had to pay close attention to the world around us. we have had to take our cues on what is safe and what is not frim the reactions and responses of those around us. 


i am wondering if that has made us just auper aware, or paranoid?


i mean, i guess i am looking to swe if the rest of you on here also have a paranoid alter/s.  


i have paranoia that was basically learned and taught by a parent, but that has developed into its own sometimes debilitating person.iam often afraid to share information, use technology, leave my phone number, etc, and i wasnt sure if this is specific to my paranoid person (scaredy cam) or if it is also a common trait among DIDders?

Sway
Sway
I know that I have some level of paranoia. I also know that at least one of the others is paranoid. I think it's part of us.
KittyTwist
KittyTwist
im trying to observe more and judge myself less, but im flooded with emotion sometimes and it just seems ... like the rest of my life, it seems like a movie
Sway
Sway
I know the movie feeling feeling very well. A lot of time I'm not sure what is real. I'm not even sure if my therapist is real sometimes.
ashashappire
ashashappire
Just to tell you a little story some of my paranoia alters has to do with folks getting our permission to out us in a public stage. Then it was also their work to allow more paranoia to help with anxiety and how to turn a negative into a positive and those to leave along when you realize some folks aren't to be helped. In retrospect, it was a super duper journey venturing into the movie affluent side of things almost like stalking stalkers, but it was important in understanding what is meant . It was mostly like being serenaded, cared for, like rich folks several things comes to mind. In the end, it didn't go well, but it gave us notoriety in an unique way . It helped us gain our worth on what life could be and also helped with some of the things we left along the way authoring, inventing, musical gifts, acting, and entrepreneurship, for example.
KittyTwist
KittyTwist
i used to do acting. back some time ago, and wanted to act all my life. but somewhere along the way, my ability to stay in one person and remember lines and stage direction started stressing me out to the point that i just gave up thw dream. now i dont even do local theatre...i would still like to do work on indie prjocts, but not sure if i will ever get that confidence or person back.
KittyTwist
KittyTwist
some of my paranoia came from my dad and things he told us, things he taught us, that cemented in my mind that i was being watched and followed.

some of it came from my uncle, who was kimd of a low grade stalker of sorts, but i learned that men would pursue what they were interested in like a wild animal.

i think certain times and seasons, i am highly amped because i am afraid to leave the house...liike !maybe i am expecting someone to track me and get me somewhere i dont want to be.

which has happened before and was really really frightening