There are things I often buy at the store, and hardly ever eat; sometimes, it's cottage cheese and alfalfa sprouts. I like them in the store, but ignore them once I get back home!! Tomatoes are the same way. I have a very independent (desire, even though I'm very dependent and needy, go figure!!) streak in me, so I'd rather go for learning to be civil with one another and getting along. Integration seems to me, like it would be losing parts of me I don't want to lose. We went through a lot to be who we are today. I don't want to lose that. But other people, don't feel that way about integration (or not) so that's ok, too.

Oh ok thanks for your views on this hehe

im a vegetarian. and 3 of my alters that i know of eat meat with their lives. i've been trying for years to get them to stop eating meat cause i cant handle dead animals. so then im a veg, and then we're not and i steal bf's meat he told me...
same with clothes and music and friends and hobbies and stuff... always fighting for power..
and that is what i want us to achieve. all of us being contempt with the one life and the one body that we have. all of us living according to the same rules. that, and triggers not dissociating us so i can stay that person that i need to become, and not always lose time.

i dont think integration is possible in the sense that my inners will go away. they have been burned in my brain. it's my nature to be we. i dont think that's ever going to go away. but it's just my opinion.. people say integration is possible.. i dont see how.

thats funny how you guys contradict yourselves lol

My therapist promised that no one would be lost in integration, and that we would only go as far as the alters want to go individually. That was such a great comfort to us all. It was the first time in years that I remember feeling really focused. I think it is because he got through to everyone in my head.
Talking about favorite foods, my littles are making me fat. They keep buying or cooking high calorie foods and eating in the middle of the night, or when "I" am not in charge. I need to find a way to get them to stop. I've gained 20 pounds. I am supposed to be a nutrition coach! ouch.

lol

I want full integration because I want to be able to acsess all my feelings without having to split off another part..for instance i can't get angry unless i lose me....and then I swich back and cant remember what i said.....I would love to have life be one long fluid movement instead it is short broken bursts......always losing myself...cant ever remember emotions i had....cant connect with people because of this.Like i will make a connection or a friendship and then switch...and then forget or lose the feeling of connection...i really hate it....

well put Moonstruck

agreed, very well put, thats a good way to look at it

Two good questions, Destiny!

My little Prudence loves ice cream and chocolate. She always seems to get her way at the store because I can't bear to make her cry. As a result, one cupboard recently had four full bags of mini chocolate bars in it, plus a chocolate cake in the fridge (half became supper one night!).
That really ticks off the others, who view the body as thin, until they look in the mirror and see what Pru's food choices do to it.

Tia loves steak... raw or nearly raw. That's always interesting when going to restaurants.


Regarding integration, I agree with Moon -- It would be nice to learn to deal with emotions as they come, and to choose my own responses to stress rather than giving myself over to one of them.

well thank you very much and good answer hehe yeah my pebbles has me eating candy every chance she can get.

Hi destiny, great questions. My little one lizzy loves hot chocolate and waffles. Then I have a sugar/salt junk food junky An anorexic and a strict vegetarian. As far as integration,I dont think that is going to happen. All of my alters have positive qualities too. What I hope can happen is to convince them that they dont have to compete for my attention. Some of them just need someone to listen to them,some need to vent,some are very hurt and stubborn it is those ones that I find I have to tread lightly. I dont see any of them going away,I dont think I would want them too.

i see that is quite the interesting bunch, thanks, and im hear and my two therapists any time your alters want to talk.