It's hard to say, there could be different reasons for it. What I have found, is what helps facilitate therapy most, is trust and mutual respect for, and from, my therapist. How long have you been seeing the one you have now? It takes time to develop that trust, and that open-ness to divulge stuff like this. If you don't feel comfortable or safe talking about this to your therapist, it might be time to start looking for one you do. But if you do work well with your therapist, I'd say, go ahead and talk about it. Finding out how your T. reacts and responds, is just as important as finding out what's going on with you.

it could indeed be a severe BPD.
but you need to tell your therapist. he can help you.

and i must say, that it sounds kinda (subcounsciously,) self-induced?
as it started after you went researching for your friend.
but we cant make any more of it here then you can.
speak with your t.
an important side effect of DID is time loss.
all the other things could in medical terms be defined as borderline. i would like to help you, but really our help only is not good enough.
((hugs))

Innerdialogue,

Although that is a really good suggestion, I also forgot to mention that this started approximately two years before I even met my friend or knew anything about DID. So I don't think this would make sense for me.

Hi. I am a social work intern and I have DiD and from what i have learned so far in my graduate classes about Borderline personlity. that one of the symptom is dissocaition. Dissociation is on a spectrum. Just because you dissocate does not mean you are DID. borderline has a range of symptoms that you have to meet five of. but there is one that is just personality disorder NOS. I do not know though because i can't dx you . try talking to your T and see what he.she says. all the info. you give him/her will help with a accurate dx. you can also ahve IDID and BPD at the same time.

you articulate this all very well. if you have a therapist t hat you trust, i would take a small part of this and test the waters with it. perhaps start with the disosiative feeling during the SI part where you've had this inner conversation...see where your therapist takes you from there. there are a lot of important issues going on here and you have some good questions. the label is not the most important thing, sorting through it and making some sense out of all of the emotions and feelings that are represented is a good place to start...so is the fact that you are afraid of what is going on inside of you, and you are asking questions about psychosis and fearing being disbelieved (which is VERY common). if it gives you any relief, my t. explained the difference between dissociative and scizophrenic or dellusional voices in that dissociative voices have personality and emotion, history and memory--even if it's fragmented, there is someone to get to know, and the voices seem to come from with in--they cana be reasononed with. the others cseem to come from outside, tend to be commanding or commenting on what's being done, but can't really be known or reasoned with; a third possibility that doesn't sound AT ALL like what is going on with you, and that not eeryone believes in (only read on if you are ok with spiritual ideas....)

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is a spiritual force of darkness--these also have a flat-emotionless, evil sense to them...they are out for harm and destruction, may sound even like one's own thoughts but breed harm, confusion, and lies, and for a person who has faith in God and Jesus, these must leave when commanded to by a child of God in the name of Jesus Christ. most cultures in the world have a belief in this and call for deliverance. that leaves the "hearing voices" beyond the basic "talking to yourself inside your mind" like everyone does, situation to 3 basic possibilities: dellusion/psychosis, dissociation, spiritual possession. obviously some are more common than others, but they are all treated in entirely different ways. unfortunately, many people don't see the difference and treat all of them alike, with whichever they belive in most clearly. that's why so many people get misdiagnosed for so long.

Hello catlover. Its hard to say whether or not you have DID but what you are experiencing is real, regardless of your diagnosis. Everyone has parts of themselves that are younger and sometimes we all feel like we are little. Even so called "normal" ppl.
I have both BPD and DID so I understand how confusibg it can be to figure out which is which.
Talk with your therapist, tell them exactly what you said here. What you are experiencing , thinking, wondering be completely open about it, its the only way you will get anywhere with it