Multiple Personalities Support Group

Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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KittyTwist 05/07/2018

I wonder if I am a bit agoraphobic.

I've never had anyone specifically suggest it but I wonder about that. Or maybe one of my people is.?

I am often afraid or hesitant to go outside. Not every day, but some days. It's not like I refuse to leave the house,but some days, when I should be like "oh it's glorious out and I have the day off! I should go for a walk (or garden, or kayak)". But I won't want to. I feel afraid, and instead i come up with some reason I cant go out. I have to do laundry, or rearrange furniture, or clean house. I have a headache or i'm tired. But really, I'm just scared to go outside the walls of my home. Even to sit on my porch ii the back yard, which I've already done today.

I'm just scared.

Jellybean6 05/10/2018

I have struggled with panic disorder with agoraphobia for years and it certainly sounds like it. I fpund the more and more I avoided going out, the worse it got. Then I had to build up my tolerance to go out again. Of course Maggie would often end up stepping in if I became too stressed because she's outgoing, bubbly and much more carefree.

KittyTwist 05/14/2018

It's so weird. I love to go outside for walks, and play disc golf,loads of outdoor games, feed the birds, I read outside and sometimes even make jewelry out on the porch. But some days I am just terrified of going out, and will stay inside all day even if it's beautiful,on!y going out at the end of the day to take out recycling or something. I don't know why it's that way, but I have to assume it's a person or two, because a lot of my system likes being outside.

Meh.
Glad to know it happens to others though. Thanks jelly!

Jellybean6 05/15/2018

You're welcome!

KittyTwist 05/21/2018

Ugh.
It's been bad lately off and on, but I got out this weekend and went geocaching.
This was great, I had so much fun, I was outside walking the city for 6 hours and am excited to go do it again, so I feel like this was a good hobby to pick up to help me get through this right now. Weee!

KittyTwist 07/07/2018

another day trapped in the house even though its beautiful outside.
i cant tell if i am scared or worried or if my peeps are paranoid or if im just broke.
i hate this

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