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Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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Accepting parts

loum50
loum50
I would like to know if anyone else has a therapist that is helping them to accept their parts. For me it is embarrassing and freeing. I feel both ashamed and relieved at this diagnosis. I feel embarrassed when she asks me to talk to my parts, especially when she asks me to ask their permission to talk to other parts. It is also wonderful to feel totally understood and to know that the goal is not to get rid of my parts, but to establish communication and acceptance of all my parts and to be aware of them. I feel embarrassed when some of my parts start talking out loud to each other. I am becoming more aware of my parts and more accepting of them and less that I have to justify them. I am starting to be aware that the denial of the abuse is a part that does not want to believe it. I have another part that is afraid to share at a deep level with another person. I am starting to become aware of how many separate and distinct parts there are. It feels good that I can own these feelings and I am feeling more comfortable with myself.
deleted_user
deleted_user
I remember at the same time as school I mentioned in this thread I was also in therapy. I told my T that I'd had a disturbing dream. I was in a grocery store in the back looking at frozen vegetables and realized my step father (rapist) was behind the food. My T said "You want to talk about your step father?" The next thing I remember he was out of his chair and squatting in front of me - not touching me - just saying forcefully, "Diane!! come back, we don't have to talk about your Step dad. I Promise! you don't have to say anything, just come back to me now." I had been dx DID but would not accept it. I was barely accepting the big PTSD. My T was a combat vet with PTSD of his own. He never pushed me to accept the dx. He was so compassionate and always let me decide what would be safe for me.

Ten years later I asked him again to treat me. He was different. I brought up the idea of SRA and he looked at me like the idea was ludicrous. And with the look of complete disbelief I left and never went back.

Therapists are wounded humans too. I'm distrustful and yet desperately in need of one now. In my case even working a lot doesn't alway allow for one. I make very low wages and no insurance. I'm pretty jealous Loum but I'm very happy for you too.
loum50
loum50
Luckily I make enough to pay out of pocket for my therapist as my insurance would not cover the amount of treatment I need. I'm sorry you don't make enough for a therapist. Good therapists are expensive. I pay my therapist's lowest rate and it's still $140 a week, but she specializes in adults abused as children that have dissociative dissorders. She is educated and experienced in this. I feel so grateful to have found her.