Multiple Personalities Support Group
Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...
i had to see my dad this week.
he is my main abuser through my life, and it amazes me that i cannot seem to get away from ME taking care of HIM even though he repeatedly abused me.
its crazy, really. and he's dying. and even while he is heading down the path to dying, i still have to be closer to him and more of a care taker than i am comfortable with.
its terribly upsetting. i wish he had died 20 years ago. he has been a huge nightmare in my life and a vampire to all of us in my family. and now as he deteriorates he still has to be the center of attention and i the person who offers nurturing.
it makes me want to throw up, and i am trying to deal with it today. havent been able to process it this whole week due to work. and really, we are trying to concentrate on our trip to the bahamas in September, when he pulls this shit.
seriously, how can one person destroy so many peoples lives...
I'm so so sorry that you're trapped in this situation. I have no advice to offer, only the hope that you're free of him in the very near future
a few years ago (or ok, decades?) my sister didnt even think anything had ever happened to me, but after lots of talking, work, and time they both know way more about my situation. and they are ok with me stepping out of the care taking role.
i have seen the last of my dad. he can go when he wants...soon i hope, but i am not seeing him ever again. and i have slept better this week than my whole life!!