Maybe you are afraid of being grounded. Using these exercises gives some control, maybe I can be grounded when I want to. I have a lot of trouble staying present at meetings at work. That's not good when the vice president of operations is in the meeting. I don't have to use those grounding exercises when.I don't want to.

I guess I am afraid of change. I am used to the way my mind works. I don't want it to be different. It's a process I know.

For me it seems like there is constant change. Also not staying present is sometimes dangerous for me. Recently I was doing some work at home. It was time to eat so I took my insulin and my blood sugar. As I was shutting down my computer the program I was working on hung up and I started to fix the problem. Next thing I knew it was 3 hours later and my blood suger was very low and as I was sucking on hard candies trying to bring it up I passed out. I have incidents that are dangerous often so I need to be able to stay present when I want to.

Yes! I can see how in this situation it is no joke. I also can get into dangerous situations while driving. If you are diabetic you must take of yourself. Even if you avoid an actual pass out event, the long term damage of the high sugars can be irreparable. We owe it to ourselves to take care. Easier said than done I guess. But I truly am making progress. I mean 6 weeks ago, I didn't know I had DID so that's a step in the right direction. Now I am actually starting to really embrace these parts.

wow. yep, me too, and really? That's all I have to say about so many of the similarities I just read throughout this post. How can there be so many of us with such similar experiences, yet we are so alone?

That's the good thing about DS, we find that we are not alone. There are so many things that are the same that it is hard to stay in any denial.

So true, Loum.
And it gives us the courage to go forward because others have tread the path before us and made it safe.
Within two months, I realised I was suffering from DID and had been submitted to extreme /ritualised abuse.
I have an excellent psychiatrist but I am sure I would not have coped so well without the support and exchange from DS boards.

I just got home from therapy. I am really connecting with my therapist and she is very experienced with DID. When I get home from therapy things are usually stired up because I work very hard in therapy. I've been working on grounding exercises, getting some insight into DID and starting to come to some acceptance of what my parents did to me. She also wants me to try to be aware of when I switch and what triggers it. Today one of the things we talked about was my being sensitive and how my father ridiculed me for that. I learned to hate myself for being sensitive. Now I'm learning that it is a real gift that I was born with.