Hey girl I know what you are going thru, after this last miscarraige I stayed up all night and wanted to sleep all day and as much as I hated going back to work it made me get up. I am so sorry that you are pretty much going this alone!! I just barely started working out and it has been 8 weeks, but it sometimes feels like it was only yesterday. You are stronger then you give yourself credit for, I haven't known you long but from talking to you I can see that. Hang in there I promise the sun will shine for you again. Let me know if you need to talk.
Daniella :)

I felt the same way you do for a very long time. I still have my days where I make plans to do something productive, but then... I just do nothing. I am taking depression meds eventhough I do not want to and it does help me. I also have a phychologist I see once a week. When I talk to her about feeling lazy, she just tells me to allow myself to be lazy, it will pass. I too have trouble sleeping. I take sleeping meds to help me sleep and one weekend, 2 weeks ago, my husband and I went on a trip only for 2 nights, but when I left I forgot to take my meds with me. I think I slept a total of 3 hours that weekend. Sleep does not come easy for me. I am sorry you are feeling like this, but you are a strong person. We all are to still be here after what we've been through. Take care of yourself and know we are all here for you.
Hugs,
Kathy

I felt the same way you do for a very long time. I still have my days where I make plans to do something productive, but then... I just do nothing. I am taking depression meds eventhough I do not want to and it does help me. I also have a phychologist I see once a week. When I talk to her about feeling lazy, she just tells me to allow myself to be lazy, it will pass. I too have trouble sleeping. I take sleeping meds to help me sleep and one weekend, 2 weeks ago, my husband and I went on a trip only for 2 nights, but when I left I forgot to take my meds with me. I think I slept a total of 3 hours that weekend. Sleep does not come easy for me. I am sorry you are feeling like this, but you are a strong person. We all are to still be here after what we've been through. Take care of yourself and know we are all here for you.
Hugs,
Kathy

There is nothing wrong with you, It hasn't been that long ago since your miscarriage and though there is a part of you that might want to jump back into your daily routine there is another part of you that has no ambition, motivation, or desire and that is very typical. When I lost Angel I slept all of the time, or at least it seemed like all of the time. I put off sleep until 3 am because I couldn't deal with the nightmares and then when I finally did get to sleep I had to get up to get the two older boys up and ready for school. Then I'd crash on the couch until I heard the younger kids wake up. I've let my housework go and it shows and I am just now after four months finally starting to do a little bit more here and there. I am currently out of work so that is added stress right there even though I'm filling out applications and doing up resumes every time I turn around. I understand what you're going through. You will fill like this for a while but I promise that little by little you will regain your strength and you will be able to move forward. We're here with you, honey. Don't forget that.

i know the feeling, after my m/c i gained about 20 pounds b/c all i wanted to do was sleep so i wouldn't have to deal with reality. then i had to force myself to start exercising again. it was really hard but after about 2 weeks my mood completely turned around and i was actually happy for once. there's nothing wrong with you. you're baby will always be on your mind and will always be with you, watching over you. it will get better.

Hey sweetie, I did the same things that you were doing; staying home alone thinking about everything that has been happening driving myself cray. I cried so much that my face looked as if someone had beaten me up. I understand that you need to go through a greving process but don't let yourself get sucked into this horror. I finaly had gotten the strength to get out of bed and go to work and you know at first I thought I wouldn't be able to handle it but to be honest I think it has helped me a great deal. Of course I still think about my babies but I'm keeping myself occupied. I realized just sitting around just thinking about that was just making me feel worse. I hope that this helps you. You will be in my prayers.

thank you all for your wonderful support.
its like im watching myself do things. i talk to myself telling myself to just get up, but it doesnt happen. and the miscarriage isnt concious on my mind, but it comes out. i cry not even knowing i am crying. i feel empty. its strange how something so common could affect us so much. i was going through things before this pregnancy, and the pregnancy was my light in the darkness. now the darkness is back, and i feel so weak to fight it.