I am going to a miscarriage right now myself and i can understand you. But you cant be too angry because it is just going to make things worse. Just keep taking things one day at a time and hopefully you will feel better soon. be strog, he is a guy and they express their feelings differently.

You can be angry at your losses. At fate or the universe or whatever you believe in for dealing you this blow, but not your fiancee. You can not expect any other person( man or woman) to deal with grief and loss the way that you do-it's not fair. I'm sure you love this man deeply and from what I've read he is now the father of 5 lost babies, whatever he has to do to make it through(within reason) I would totally give him the benefit of the doubt. We all carry our burdens in different ways, express pain and angst through different methods. If you are in doubt that he is in pain that is one thing, but if you just don't like that he's not grieving as you are that is another. I know this a hard time for you and that you're hurting. I suggest you go to your lover and tell him how hard this is for you and what he can do to help you cope better. Ask him how he feels and whether there is anything you can do to help him. You two have just suffered three recent losses: I can't imagine that things aren't strained. You have every reason to feel stressed and confused and a bevy of other emotions that just plain suck. Give him and yourself a break and breathe.

I'm so sorry for your losses and all you are going through. I was going through a miscarriage last year when TWO co-workers were having abortions. One aborted twins and the other was going around the office bragging she was pg but aborting! :( I quit shortly after that because I couldn't go to work without wanting to punch one of them.

I see you are in TX. There is a Face2Face group sort of near you. They are having a get together this weekend. http://www.facebook.com/home.php#!/pages/Face2Face-Southwest-Houston/176181612424033

Im so sorry for your losses. What you are feeling is completely normal. Men grieve differently then women. I can totaally understand how you job would get to you. I also work with babies and went right back to work after my MC. My MC was 16 months ago. Up until a month ago, it was extremely difficult on me to go to work everyday. not to mention there are quite a few babies around the same age that my baby would have been. I had tgrin and bear it and pretend at work that everything was ok when all I wanted to do was break down and cry, but I had to fight back the tears. There were a few times I had to sneak into the bathroom to cry until I could get ahold of myself. Recently I have come to terms with my loss and I accept it and pain has subsided. I am happy, but I will never forget my baby. She will always be in my heart and I will see her in Heaven when its my time. It gets easier, it really does.

I wouldnt be angry at your fiance though, because he is grieving differently. My husband tried to avoid it to be "strong" for me in the begining, until he realized that by him doing that, it made me feel that he wasnt grieving with me, and made me feel alone. You should tell him how you feel. Talk with and be honest, but polite and help him to understand what you need from him.

Take as much time to grieve as you need. theres no set time. II will keep you in my prayers. I pray this gets easier on you and you find the support that you need. Us girls on here are great for support. If you need to talk, I'm here!

Erin

Be Angry, it is part of the grieving process. I am there now. I did not feel anger after my first just sorrow. After my second m/c I feel anger. It is normal to feel this. As for your significant other, men grieve in different ways. My husband continues to tell me this and I have seen this through two now even with myself. Stay strong and take care of yourself.