So, I'm new to support groups, and this was my first miscarriage. Unfortunately, it was missed. I thought I was about 9 wks, and turns out, the baby stopped growing at about 6 wks. It has been truly devastating. All I ever wanted was to do this Mommy business. I am pretty much the only person I know that is around my age who hasn't had a baby. Even my fiance has 2 kids (which he doesn't get to see, due to them living out of state. I was having a hard time coping with everything. I couldn't look at pregnant people. To make matters worse, my sister told me she was pregnant with a guy she couldn't stand, and she told me not even a wk after I had the d&c in September. So, needless to say, I still haven't been able to talk to her.
Well, finally I broke down and had a long talk with my fiance and told him the truth with how I felt. At that point, I didn't like having sex, since it gave me hope. I didn't like my boobs or tummy touched, since it was a reminder of an empty vessel. Well, long story short, he said we can try again now, if I wanted to, but I decided to wait 2 mths to make sure my cycles are back on track. I had 1 which was insanely painful on multiple levels.
Well, now I am excited to try again but also insanely nervous of it happening again. I know the odds aren't really any greater, but I'm also scared because I have a tilted uterus which the Dr said not to worry about.
I guess what I'm looking for is someone to talk to, some success stories, and maybe an ounce of hope. I'm pessimistic slightly, and don't believe in God, but I guess I'm slightly spiritual.
Anywho, thanks for taking the time to read this. It has taken me a bit to finally share my story.