I'm so sorry for your loss. :( I just had a miscarriage and it is really hard, I don' t know how I could go through it again. So I see how you are scared to try again. But if you finally have a diagnosis, then maybe it is worth one more shot. I really would like to just adopt instead of running the risk of another miscarriage but my husband thinks we can't give up yet. Guys don't truly get how devastating it is to go through. I can't even imagine how paranoid I will be when/if I get pregnant again. So I think all your concerns are normal, but I feel like now you know what could be your problem, you should give it another shoot and try to hope for the best, that's all you can do. I'm finally seeing a counselor next week and I am hoping that they can help me make it through this process. Maybe you should look into that too. I can let you know how mine goes, I'm quite nervous for it. Good luck! (((hugs)))