It's only been a month and a half and my boyfriend doesnt seem to know what to say to me anymore. lol I'm not upset with him though and I'm not saying that you're upset with your spouse. I'm just telling you that I understand.

Thanks. Yes, I don't want to complain about my husband because he is the most patient person in the world. he just isn't good at talking about feelings because he just wants to solve problems. I think that is what a lot of men feel like, but unfortunately, unless you can go back in time and change the outcome, this one is unfixable. I think that is the hardest part for him.

So true! I am married to the kindest man, yet he is lousy with the miscarriage stuff. He bought me a gift for the miscarriage. I was like what the hell is this? A push gift? Shew, felt good to say that. I love my hubby to pieces and can't tell anyone that.

Endo woman, I get it. I think the same way and am very driven by fate. When we miscarried, I said: we weren't supposed to have a baby in 2012 because 13 (2013) is our lucky number.

It's such a crazy waiting game though...

How do you feel now? Did they diagnose your endo w/ the miscarriage? Endo sucks.

It'll be 6 years next month since my miscarriage. Most of the time, I'm fine. However, I occasionally have difficulty. For instance, I broke down in front of a whole bunch of people who were talking about "the miracle of birth" and how difficult it is to get pregnant and how amazing it is that any baby is ever born and how amazing it is that babies are born normal. All of the sudden, I just started tearing up uncontrollably and had to leave the room. Now, NONE of the people in that room knew that we had lost a baby, so my husband had to explain why I left so quickly. They felt terrible, and I was embarrassed that I broke down. You think that after 6 years you're okay, but even a simple conversation like that can hit you on a sensitive day and BAM, you're crying. sigh....it's a long healing process and it's a devastating loss. We all love our babies and it's okay to be sad forever and it's okay to let other people know that we are sad and that we miss our babies.

I wish you happiness and healing. Eventually you will continue with your lives, but you will NEVER forget. It's okay to cry whenever you need to. Always remember that!

Thanks for the replies ladies. It is nice to know that other people understand how I feel.

Endowife, I was diagnosed with endo 10 years ago because I had grown a large cyst and they needed to operate. I keep telling myself lately (because I do have one healthy son) that I was extremely lucky to have him. The severity of my disease is pretty extreme and I am trying to focus more on the fact that I was blessed once. Still, I hope for more.

I too believe that the babies (2) that I have lost were not meant to be with me here, but it is difficult to understand why. It is a progression and I do let myself cry and be miserable sometimes, but I can't help but get frustrted that no one (the people that know) ever asks about how I am doing. To me, I lost a family member. I don't think people make that connection.