Menopause Support Group

Menopause is the physiological cessation of menstrual cycles associated with advancing age. It normally occurs in women between the ages of 45 and 55, when the body begins to slow and stop the production of eggs, estrogen and progesterone production decreases, and menstruation diminishes, eventually stopping altogether.

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vickicrouch2 09/19/2013

God I wish I could get out what I really want to say and get across my feelings like other people do here on this site. I start out writing something and hit the back space cause I don't really want to tell any body how horrible I feel like almost ashamed of my feelings. Does that make any sense. I feel alone like I'm the only person going through this crap when I know I'm not the only one suffering, yet it feels so much like that I can't tell you how much It feels like that.

2011 was the beginning of this nightmare and I have not woke up yet. I always feel so alone and isolated. I have many health issues but always feel menopause is at the root of my many issues. I have been diagnosed with diverticulosis and gallstones and a hernia oh, and high blood pressure so I do have a few issues, but when I look up symptoms of all the my issues i don't seem to have a lot of those problems . My issues were found due to a CT scan done due to feeling like something was wrong and going to one dr and another. By the way doctors suck.

I just woke up one day feeling like, now this sounds crazy but like my blood was not flowing through my body the right way i know sounds crazy and then the shaking and not being able to breath sent me to my first crazy doctor who wanted to pray for me believe it or not! Oh I almost forgot there has been other people posting about a weird sensations going through their bodies that really is the best way to describe it. Like my body was having a wave of adrenaline running through it. It just freaked me out so bad. I'm on my third dr now and he's the one that ordered the CT scan and though there are issues don't feel like I'm getting to the bottom of what is wrong with me.
I am grateful for the Xanax that I have to take on a daily basis but in fear of all that , that comes with I'm too scared to take any thing else. or I should say I react to a lot of medicines i'v tried several different depression meds none work for me they all seem to cause me anxiety. One of my many problems is tinnitus which to me is the very worst thing you can have. When you have ringing in your ears and it sounds like it's coming from you brain well let just say it is very scary. The crying is better with the Xanax at least I'm stable at this point I really thought I was going to end up at the mental hospital my husband refused to take me now I feel like I'm just living life in a very bad dream that never ends. Well I think I've managed to write some of my most disturbing issues there are a few more but now I'm getting tired to I guess that is enough for now. Menopause is a freaking nightmare for sure!!!!!!

isabelle1954 10/12/2013

This will pass. I was having anxiety attacks, could hardly leave the house, thought obsessions. Get something to help you sleep. I was on Elavil 20 mg. each evening which helped me to calm down. Deep breaths, you will be stronger and wiser. isabelle1954

deleted_user 10/14/2013

Hi ladies I'm going through the same thing a freaking nightmare don't feel like me anymore tired,cold,itchy skin ,headaches,forgetting things,not sleeping,total bitch,crying,sore boobs,aching body when will this stop been going through hell for two years the anxiety is killing me can't go anywhere anymore just tried natural hrt had to stop like a zombie 24/7 any advice would be great.

vickicrouch2 10/14/2013

Gosh confused wish I could be of some help. I have to be on Xanax times two a day just to not freak out and I'm not over stating the fact here. I mean it was bad. I do have some health issues ,high blood pressure just diagnosed with acid reflux and a few other issues, but I always come back to the menopause site. I have such severe anxiety the doctors even says wow you have a lot of anxiety. Oh thanks for that insight doc. I was crying all day when all this first started and in my case it was because I felt like I could not breath and started shaking and my ears started ringing to the point of being very weird. I've since started taking Vitamin D and a multi and don't know if its the Xanax that is in my system or the vitamins but feel like i'm about 1/4 better not even half but its something. I try not to worry about taking the Xanax due to the fact it's the only thing I can take at this point. My doctor(psych) has tried several things and nothing seems to work except Xanax. I take 0.25 in the am and the same at night. Even the pharmacist told me well if it's the only thing that works try to not worry about it. (I talked to her one day cause i thought what she must think about me always having to fill my Xanax every month) she asked me why i was taking it and i described everything to her and she was, oh my God you poor thing. I would certainly try all the natural stuff first but if you need help don't be afraid to ask for help. Have you spoke to a doctor about the severe anxiety? does sound like you are seeing a Gyno so maybe a reg doc could better serve you. I just wish no one had to go through this. Good luck and message back and let us know how your doing!

deleted_user 10/15/2013

Hi Vicki I was seeing a doc she took me off hrt after being on it for 19yrs due to the breast cancer scare .ihad a mammogram done nothing I asked her to put me back on it as I wasn't coping with hot flushes and night sweats she told me just to deal with it I hate her so much.if only she wold let me keep on taking it I wool don't be like this living in this night mare for the past two years .i went and seen another doc she also said no. I have no faith in doc no more that's why I chose natural hrt it's all done over the phone so I don't have to worry about going out and stressing that I might have an anxiety attack.i now haven't left the house for two years I was starting to walk then got scared.I have to start walking again real soon I don't want to be scared anymore I'm sick of living like this.my husband hasn't helped at all telling me that I'm just hopeless and that I can't do anything I'm so sick of it want to be normal again.
Sandy.

BobSue2008 10/15/2013

I've been in this so long I wouldn't recognize normal if it walked up and bit me on the rear. I take ativan twice a day. Otherwise I'd be crazy. I agree that everything that happens to a woman while she's going through this is related to menopause. Stupid hormones.

vickicrouch2 10/15/2013

Hi Sandy. I'm just feel so bad and wish i could help you. I know you said you can't go out. but sounds like you been to the gyno and had the mammogram so is there a way to get to the reg doc and tell them about your anxiety. I do not want to advocate drugs but you may need something like Ativan or Xanax or something like that. It can make you feel very tired at first but may of be of help to you. If i lived there where you are I would take you where you needed to go if your husband would not I know that might sound like talk but that is kinda of what i did for a living before all this crap happened to me. I was a CNA and would take my clients to their medical app. I can't work now but can get out enough to go to my dr apps and would certainly get you there. I will pray for you and keep you in my prayers. I'm sorry if I restated anything that i've stated before just want you to be better is there any way to get to a reg doc? My thoughts are with you, Vicki.

Hi bobsue yes I know exactly what you mean. I am not the same person and just trying to deal with the fact I may never be the same is very difficult. I see a councilor and want it to help but does not feel like it is helping what so ever. I think it's more hormone related thin anything. I'm sending you positive thoughts and hope you doing okay today.

deleted_user 10/16/2013

I wish u lived near me Vicki I need a friend .

vickicrouch2 10/16/2013

Dear Confusedd. Me too!

deleted_user 10/20/2013

What a stressful 24hrs anxiety levels really high ruttleys road bush fire on the central coast to close didn't know if we were going to get evacuated or not the only way out by boat don't want to go through this again hubby was more worried about helping his mate than being here for me left me the car keys if I needed to get out I by car he hasn't been home since Friday night came home late Sunday night I was so scared men

bogey44 10/21/2013

Gosh so much that I am reading is me. I have always had anxiety and have taken meds for 20 years, but it has gotten worse! I went through horrible hot flashes and they stopped...I thought well am I on the road home and as hard as life could be before....I WANT IT BACK...but no I started "lite" hot flashes again. I stopped crying at everything! The weather change and getting ready to start day light savings time is SOOO hard on me. Oh, will I live through it????

I am 54 and have not had a cycle in over 2 years.

Praying and trying to keep busy...hard with low motivation..family and meds are all that are keeping me together!!

We can do it gals!!!!

vickicrouch2 10/21/2013

Hi Confusedd, Sandy. So sorry about your horrible last couple of days. I just got done reading an article about the fire there in Australia. How scary, leave it to a man to make you feel like crap during a very stressful situation. just had a very stressful situation myself and my husband made me fell like crap. He was sleeping and had to wake him up so he was not happy about that. He said he was sorry later but in the mean time i'm almost crying from the drama of it all...I hope you are staying safe and out of harm way... I will keep you in my thoughts, Vicki.

vickicrouch2 10/22/2013

Hi boyqey44. I missed your post somehow but just wanted to say I praying for you and hope your doing well, boy we have so much to deal with! Meds and family are what keep me going as well. I will keep you in my prayers and wish you well and lets get through this quick.

deleted_user 10/23/2013

Is it just me or my hormones I was so cranky with hubby yesterday haven't seen much of him for the past two weeks as he been helping his mate clean up his house yesterday he was home all day I had my grandson over all he done was played his play station yelling and screaming if elf like ripping his head off finally turned it off 6hrs later shopping got delivered I told him to help me reluctantly he helped tried to get dinner with 1yr old under my feet free kid gone home very tired cleaning up after dinner can u help me what do want me to do just help me great help he was just put let over mince in a bowl left it on the bench now he is asleep woke him up don't think he liked that very much but hey I've been up since 6am trying to do everything and he says your rally cranky I said I can't help it you try going through what I'm going through if you don't like it live some where else is it just me or these hormones?

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